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New beginnings

2012-01-28T14:41:00.002+08:00

OMG I haven't blogged for 2 weeks!!!

Felt like I have disappeared from the face of the Earth and life has been kept so busy and days have been passing by so quickly!

So anyway, in my previous post I was still talking about worrying about my 1st lesson at macpherson and unknowingly ytd was already my 4th lesson there! Kids have been hyperactive but nice at the same time so it's okay, reminds me so much of my childhood/primary school days and being a teacher is really not easy. Before every lesson I have to buy myself ginseng chrysanthemum/liang cha if not by the end of the lesson really will lose voice!! LOL But have been enjoying my time there ^^ Always feeling a sense of achievement whenever they improve and stuff :')

Alternatively my work over at Awfully Choc has barely started... because for Jan I only applied to work for 3 days LOL and my 2nd day is later. LOL. So I'm still a noobie and raw with all the proceedings, only thing im capable of without help is using the cashier since ive been one before LOL. #lifeskills.

Can vaguely remember the events for the past fortnight... i know on the 14th there was chingay full dress rehearsal at the F1 pit and it was boring as hell... the waiting time was so freaking long i almost fell asleep on the road LOL was a really late night too and sunday as usual, was shhk! Monday and Tuesday were both spent teaching at MPS and I met Jabez for dinner on Tuesday after work I think? Or was it mon.. cant rmb hahaha. Then wednesday was supposedly 10S68 outing BUT yours truly had pointe class at night!! Gave it a miss but I met the girls at town earlier in the day for some cny shopping and watch Rena's pockets burn from the expensive manicure LOLZ.

//did not really enjoy the feeling bumping into hc students in uniform everywhere i go, reminds me of my misery and my reality in approx 1 month zz// :sadtruth:

Thurs was then work at AC for morning shift and the girls were nice ^^ hehehe. Met peishi after work and we toured around Orchard/Somerset for a few times, went to return Charis her slippers before that and went to find Jasmine at Frolick after that for some chit chat and then we walked all the way back to ION for Swensen's LOLLOL. After dinner where I decided i was kinda tired and wanted to pig out and go home, SWEET TOOTH OVERTOOK MY LIFE and I bought $13 worth of Garrett's popcorn WHICH HALF A PACKET IS STILL INTACT IN MY HOUSE RIGHT NOW.. then we walked to A&F for another "tour" and we took a polaroid with the shirtless model. LOL I mean, that has become a new tourist attraction for females in Singapore right?? LOL.

Friday was performance at Maris Stella and omg, their school build staircase like free one!!! Build stairs no need money siaaaa, no mercy at all climb from the entrance near Bartley to their GO is like.... :O:O And that morning was a terrible one :( left house supposedly to be punctual!!! but my slippers broke halfway and i went home to change to another pair of sandals and it was too late so I took a CAB... AND SO... IT WAS A BRIGHT SUNNY BEAUTIFUL MORNING AND I GOT MY PEAK HOUR+ERP SURCHARGE WITH 3 TRAFFIC LIGHTS AND A TRAFFIC JAM... $$$$$ flew away :(

After performance met Russel & Henry for lunch at Sizzler which was goood~ and i was just tired max but I waited to collect my cny goodies from Gladys before heading home and packed for Malaysia, and so I spent my Saturday-Wednesday in Malaysia, which is also how i spent CNY!!

Let the pictures do the talking, but there were of course more happening things like putting fire crackers, gambling w my parents and my parents leeched me and my sis money like free $$$$, putting fireworks, family drinking games, and all~ One of the more enjoyable CNY thus far. PROLLY COS IM NOT TIED DOWN BY SCH AND HOMEWORK I JUST FEEL LIKE A SLACKER I EAT AND SLEEP WITH NO WORRIES (despite occasional nightmares about results day and every wish i made consisted of it LOL)

And since I came back on Weds i had a good nap at home and I met russel for an impromptu lunch at yishun and then met my parents for dinner, then my dad drove us around Singapore for one round LOL, and home to watch tv and then out for supper but sadly BEANCURD CITY/ROCHOR BEANCURD BOTH NOT OPEN!! :@ Omg zzz.... Thurs was another day i decided to laze at home since i had only planned to start work on Friday. Day out with parents went ikea and all... packed my room (HALFWAY) and then friday was teaching at MPS and meeting blod for STEAMBOAT buffet which was just too good and sinful... :') HEHEHE

Hmmm and alright, I'm off for work now! hahaah seeya ^^

Adult Life

2012-01-13T03:05:00.001+08:00

Life has been terribly busy recently!! And I am quite shocked when I logged into my Blogger now because the layout is sooo different LOL trying to adapt!!

Thursday was the only free day by far... and I met PS and supposed to be CNY shopping and I got a dress, but do we shopped a bit the day before her Hong Kong trip...ubt I'll wear it for CNY HAHAHA.

Friday was Chingay rehearsal, with the WATER. omgz, and we didn't have enough shoes so Zoe, silei, yujia and I went barefooted!! It was okay to dance barefooted in water but way no when we had to continue into the sectors where it was purely ROAD. LIKE THE ROAD CARS DRIVE ON. Sounding like a princess but my feet really hurt LOLLOLLOL.

This is the barefooted girls group HAHAHA

And then Saturday was the same thing again. Met Zoe for lunch (MANHATTAN 1 FOR 1! Too lazy to upload the photo here HAHAH) and chanced upon MANGO sale! Got a top before we could finally STROLL over to F1 pit... (on friday we were late by half an hour HAHAHAHA) Anyway, those 2 days of chingay rehearsal totally burnt my pockets due to ADULT FARE.

Welcome to Adult Life, sigh.

We finally ended early for once!!! But I was entirely drenched thanks to playful teens/kids who kept splashing water... IT WAS REALLY ANNOYING... #angstyadult LOL Still, I had no idea why even though we ended at 830, I still reached home only at 11PM. And I haven't been reaching home before 1130PM recently because dance is at night everyday!

Sunday was SHHK and we celebrated Aaron's 19th!! OMG first one amongst the 3 of us to turn 19. And to think I am turning 19 too in less than a month. SHIT. ADULTHOOD IS RLLY QUITE SCARY :( I wanna be forever young (WITH STUDENT FARE...) I totally understand why everyone keep saying being student is the best alr!!!!!! Because adult fare is so expensive :( Sounding like a bimbo whining here, but my adulthood has been this shallow thus far HAHAHAHA. Ikr, this is only the first step into the ~real world~

Woke up extremely early and returned home extremely late on Mon and Tues, for Awfully Chocolate job training! Yes guyssss, I'm a new girl at Awfully Chocolate. :-) Exciting but scary at the same time. Being so lost about the operations and stuff, will not forget that first step into the working space and then customers started flowing in and that kind of helplessness LOLLOLLOL. But it all got better :-) hehe it was great time spent and really enjoyed the 2 days!! Still have some stuff I'm not sure of but hope I'll get them right at the end of this month!! Actl, I'm only working 2 days this month HAHAHA. 'cause its gonna be CNY soon and I won't be in Singapore!!! ^^

And ytd had dinner with B and went for pointe class, followed by today, I was such a loser, i woke up extremely early to go dental to realise my dental is actually later in the morning (its 2:50AM now!) LOLLL so I walked home and slept till guess what? 530PM LOL. Champion already, seriously hibernating!!!! Zzz then met tong for dinner and went over to SHHK to learn baishou. It was a stress free lesson because we had so much fun chatting away and laughing at retarded stuff ^^ hehehe!

And later will be my first lesson at Macpherson Pri!!! OMG I AM SUPER NERVOUS NOW. Hope the kids will not bully me tmr!! Okay, I'm going to sleep now cos got so much stuff to pack later in the morning. Goodnight!!! ^^

To the top of the world~

2012-01-05T16:25:00.000+08:00

HIII I AM BACK!! 2nd post today, HOW LONG HAS THIS NOT HAPPEN!? Back with photos and more to blog about my life recently alr!!

Been a lazy girl much, bringing my camera out but lazy to whip it out to take photos and letting my friends do the job. The result: have to wait for them to upload, kope then can blog!!! heheeee :D

So anyway, back to the part where there's dance almost daily (and yay, finally an off today :D and 2 days ago!) On the last day of '11, we celebrated jiahui's 20th! It's also the departure of another sunday class girl from the 1_ years old group! Now the 1_ age group only left stacy, zina, bianca, tongs, me, aaron and debbie! But only Debbie still enjoy student fare T.T

Waving goodbye to jiahui for leaving the youngsters group! LOL

HAHAHA this was after class where tong zina and me played with the GIF app!!! Couldn't find a way to rotate it so here it is... HAHAHA. and here's another gif from Christmas when we were at nebo:

Us playing some game! hehe

Alright so moving on to Tuesday, where pointe was cancelled, met Charis, Sweeyan and Jiankun in the evening to pass SY my h1 econs notes where in return, the guys treated the ladies to dinner. LOL. Headed down to Upper Thomson for Prata!!! and I tell you their CHICKEN FLOSS PRATA IS DAMN GOOD. DAMN DAMN GOOD I TELL YOU!!!

As well as their murtabak... omg drooling again at the thought of it. To continue satisfying our taste buds further, we walked 2 shops down the stretch and had dessert at Salted Caramel, which was just totally mindblowing pls. I GOT TOTALLY SWEPT OFF MY FEET BY THE HORLICKS TIM TAM & SALTED CARAMEL ICE CREAM.

Even the waffle was just.. awesome beyond words. I want to eat SALTED CARAMEL NOW!!!!!!!

Then, it was also time for some camwhoring!!! HEHEHE All kope from Charis' camera cos i was too lazy to whip out mine except for a few from my iphone :D

HAHAHAHA Can't figure out what we were doing???

HAHAHAH EXPLORING MORE GIFS. The first one was totally hysterical omg LOL

Charis & I: YOUNG FOREVER, DONT CARE ABOUT ADULT FARE HAHAHA

Omg, Anderson come out one rlly crazy one look at jk and me LOLLLLLLLLLL

And then presenting to you the couple of the year below......:

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Shit I think they look quite alike in this pic, no?!??!!

Group photo before we headed over to Rochor Beancurd down the street for douhua (OMG SEE, WE WERE ON A FOOD TRIP)

Yummssss, always love my douhua to be with soy milk instead of the sucrose!

And I was a fillial daughter 93 cos I bought 2 boxes of douhua back for my parents... they were so happy pls?! HEHEHEHEHE.

Yupp it was a wonderful night because I finally did not mistreat my stomach, which is currently growling now!!! kk meeting PS at 5, see ya all!!! :-*

Decisions

2012-01-05T03:06:00.001+08:00

Every year, comes new challenges and new decisions for us to make...

Having undergone two years of jc, I'm certainly afraid of making the wrong choices. I did not regret the jc path. I'm just afraid what I want may not always be what things eventually turn out to be.

Who knew the girl who fought so hard for that 6points to enrol into hc would have such strong negativity towards the school once she entered it?

And because of this experience, I told myself whatever decision I make in life must be thru proper thinking and they must be rational... I'm 18 now, turning 19 in a month's time. It's time to make more mature and rational decisions than to solely and purely follow my heart. Yes, all this entire train of thoughts came into my mind while I thought of a level results, uni courses and all. Everything that affects my future this year.

I'm not quite sure if all the hard work, determination and perseverance is ever enough. I'm not sure if lady luck and life always decide to be so kind to me. I am afraid of what's lying ahead for me and yes I am fearful of disappointment... I am afraid that I have nowhere to go... I don't even know why these feelings are haunting me now when results are still far from being released. Maybe it's rlly this thing that hc has done to me-- giving me a sense of insecurity and feeling like I'm never good enough. Never good enough to belong to the top of this elite education...

But one thing for sure, I know the best decision I made this two years was to downgrade my econs to h1. Nevermind how the people around me, mainly people I don't know started judging and doubting my capability, saying I'm lousy and have no perseverance or whatever... That decision was the greatest form of relief for me. Even though I could safely continue w 4 h2 and stuff, even though that decision comes at the price that many scholarship boards will not even consider me because I have no 11AU, I knew what I was doing and to me, I've never regret that decision. So here, I wanted to type in the previous post but I forgot, to those who have made me doubt myself for my decision, no I am not regretting. And I hope you do not actl regret your moment of bitchiness at that moment.

Life surprises us always, 2011 wAs so miserable but I learnt so much. Maybe it wasn't such a bad thing after all. I got out of comfort zone much earlier than most of the ppl so perhaps life will be easier to adapt in the future for me I hope. There was syf, dance night and its drama where my results were so sucky that i couldnt stay in the organising exco and all that shit, parents meeting some dean due to shit results, ppl judging me due to shit results, ppl-env-relation problems...I should really stop dwelling in the past... It's a new year already. But I think I'm really lagging quite behind in my blogging!!!

Perhaps the greatest reward in '11 was finding someone who truly matters to me and places me as a priority:") and being able to keep close friends around me... As we grow older, we have lesser friends. We widen our social circle, but only few truly matters. This is totally relatable.

2012 has had a great start so far. I managed to get a job which I will be starting soon, I've been dancing frequently, and hopefully what's ahead will be good for me after going thru such tough years before hand.

Most importantly, i hope I'll make the correct decisions in everything I do this year. Because there is really no time for regrets! Hope that this year I'll fulfill all my new year resolutions (set in the previous post) :)

Start of something new

2012-01-03T03:36:00.001+08:00

HI PEOPLE, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

I know I am rather late in the wishing, and I didn't even get to post up my end of 2011 post... To be honest, I was typing half way the other day and I fell asleep, and i woke up feeling i wrote a chunk of crap so i deleted the draft.

As much as I just wanna leave those bad memories behind, I think I'll just roughly summarise the year, as well as a few new learning points for me.

2011 has been one of the most tormenting years, as well as a rewarding one. Just minutes ago, I was browsing through my facebook and I realise so many things have happened and changed. When I rewatch all of HCCD's performance videos, I felt really touched at all the happy memories that I've had, all the friends I've gained and the things I've learnt. And it has always been for moments like these that I am thankful for my choice 2 years ago, to enrol into Hwa Chong (Chinese Dance).. I'm glad I am able to find somewhere to fit in and find people who make me comfortable around them in this school...

To be very honest, and I can finally be this naked and frank, the toughest part about fitting into HC is about fitting in with the people. I do not mind stepping out of the comfort zone, I do not even mind how challenging the entire college life is... Nevermind the late nights, the screwed up grades, the travelling time... but the people really made a difference. Because I feel that I'll never really ever fit in... people in HC, are either from IP, or the O level girls come in groups together from their alma mater. And I, was almost all alone without any close friends that I could back on in this foreign land. I will never forget the days I feel so helplessly out of place...I've met nice people here, but I'm not quite sure if they'll eventually just turn to acquaintances and then to strangers.. It's like right from the start the people you meet here, you know 90% of them will automatically vanish from your life the moment you graduate. It's not that I've never tried fitting in, but sometimes the judgement that people give makes everything so hard to achieve. Not to mention the mean things that I've heard/seen that really hurt... when i did not even do any shit. And a few black sheeps is enough to make me not wanna try anymore. Which is why I dread school, I dread every single second I spend in school. Because I have barely anyone to turn to. Even though theres Jabez and Russel, but they also have their own group of guy friends and even being close to them will get ppl to judge and gossip. So perhaps it was better off physically alone. Yes, for once in my entire life I felt insecure, conscious and really unhappy. And because I did not want to allow myself to feel not confident about myself, I really really hated this place. I know hate is a strong word but, nobody will really understand how this felt, because even right now, there are still so much feelings left unwritten, unspoken. They are all still left tangled and hidden deep within, but it still hurts whenever I think about it. And I finally feel great to be able to let this all out. Because once this gets published, i dont care if people are gonna start judging me or criticize me for how i stereotype them, I'll not entertain them because this part of my life will be gone forever.

I have swore upon my life that besides results day, and probably dance night, I will never step into HC again. Because just one minute in the school will haunt me down and make me miserable, I AM NOT KIDDING. Because I have told myself that nothing in life will ever make me feel insecure and doubtful of myself. I am probably thankful that these 2 years have made me so much stronger and tougher than I was.

And I cant feel any better now that I no longer have to fear that all my anti-school feelings get judged by my sch ppl because i think i am prolly not gonna see them (most of them, 90%?) for the rest of my life again. And I know, 2012 will be a lot better because there will be much lesser tears and a happier me.

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So, 2012 I am into adulthood (DAMN YOU ADULT FARE) and I shall make more mature and rational resolutions
1) Be happy, Be thankful and always count my blessings.
2) Get a job, save up for my own expenses, be more financially independent
3) Learn driving
4) Be a better dancer/do not deprove
5) Spend more quality time with friends
6) GOOD A LEVEL RESULTS !!!!!!!
7) Be healthy
8) Be a better daughter

Okay thats all for now i think?I am going to doze off alr sorry this post has no photos HAHAHA GOOD NIGHT!!!
(btw im hvng dance every night thats why i am soooo tired)

Dancing all night long

2011-12-28T03:33:00.000+08:00

HIIII PEOPLE, SO CHRISTMAS IS OVERRRR.

Hope all you people had fun!!! Because I certainly did enjoy my christmas this year very much!^^ On christmas eve we had a flea market booth at *SCAPE which was pretty much crazy towards the end.. We were quite bored at the start cos sales wasn't too good and Time Of the Month had to visit me and i was haunted by cramps!! But towards the end we sold our stuff super cheap like $1.... HAHAHAHA desperate attempt to clear our stuff, i rlly didn't want to bring anything back :| So even though didn't earn as much since cash outflow was high HAHAHA, I MANAGED TO CLEAR MY WARDROBE HAHA.

Righhhht, so after flea headed down to amk and met jiaxin and went over to nigel's place! gonna let the pictures do the talking; it was a great night w the andersonians and i always enjoy and love times like that. The sense of familiarity and comfort~ ^^ Everything just seems to fit in and feel right.... ;) Only down side was i had to leave early like around 4am cos there was shhk the next day~

HAHAHAHA this photo is just epic but I'm really happy and grateful to have them as good friends even after all that happened ;) have fun in army my friends~~!!!

On christmas itself it was a day spent at shhk! Actl my family booked a kbox room that day but it clashed with shhk :( So i couldnt go omggggg :( After a crazily long time of not training the basics, I RLLY DIED ON SUNDAY HAHAHAHA. My legs were all wobbly and tired :O:O my back and neck ached like mad the next day and stuff... but we also celebrated christmas at shhk!!!

After class, laoshi treated us to dinner and we got free dessert from the zichar lady ^^ Wanted to watch a movie but couldn't find suitable timing/nice seats and all~ Ended up chilling at Nebo at AMK hub and played Hedbanz which was still fun!!! Rlly loving this entire freedom that I am enjoying now, cos ive never really got to spend alot of time w the shhk dancers besides class time cos i'll always be rushing home to do last min homework or whatsoever school related stuff, but now I AM ENTIRELY FREEEEE. (alright this will be before i get a job LOL)

Got home past midnight, and thusssss that was my christmas for you!!! Spent my time meaningfully doing things i like, though i did wish i could have gone kbox w my family too :( had a photoshoot ytd for a blogshop, and i mad love the make up ytd!!! Esp my brows!!! I rlly suck at doing my own brows la omg hahahah but omg i was aching so badly i had difficulty moving around so when i got home i just nua on my bed the entire day!

Dance today was another crazy thing... feeling so stressed over all the dances and stuff to learn and I am rlly like some old granny, my gong1 deproved sooooo much!!! Lots of hard work need to be put into this~~ sigh :( and theres gonna be another 4 nights of this but its not like i mind, I'd rather have such tiring nights than to study hehehehe!

Alright, going teo heng tmr before dance HAHAHA CANT WAIT!!! ^^ right good night all for now ^^

Happiness~~

2011-12-24T01:47:00.000+08:00

For those who've been asking for a makeup tutorial etc... i got no vlog for you yet, but i think this vlog can pass off as one HAHAHAHA.

It's the crazy us climbing the great wall in china HAHAHA.Pardon our pretty muffled voice due do the mask we covered ourselves with plus the strong winds!!!(wear your earpieces for clearer sounds)AND WE ARE SO NICELY WRAPPED UP IN 4 LAYERS HAHAHA.

(this is probably the only public thing in my entire facebook LOL *breakthrough*) Actually cos im just lazy to upload to youtube~~

Alright, HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE!!!!
If you're gonna be at town, come to *SCAPE and support me, peishi, jasmine and peijun at our flea market booth!!!!!HEHEHE SEEYA ^^

Only yesterday was the best day of our lives

2011-12-22T22:34:00.000+08:00

HI ALLLL!!!! I AM BACK!!! :D:D:D
(okay, actually I was back like 3 days ago LOL)

Beijing was... COLD. Like really cold. & dry, VERY SUPER DRY, polluted, the epitome of URBAN TRANSPORT PROBLEM (omg, that was totally witnessing all the case studies happening live lollol), OILY FOOD.....

but nevertheless FUN (:

It was sad that we didn't get to see snow, but all the lakes/rivers/water catchments were frozen into ice oooOooo~

So, we spent the first night there in a supermarket after dinner. = MILK TEA SPAM!! (see jay chou!! but i prefer the brand that SHE endorsed, which is the milk tea in the 3rd picture) (I wasn't aware of the yogurt power yet) and had an early rest in preparation of our upcoming 5 days at Beijing Dance Academy (BDA) & yujia and I were lucky, we got the bigger room!!! and it wasn't facing the railway tracks, so we had a pretty comfortable stay besides the night we discovered cockroaches in the toilet and brushed our teeth standing outside the toilet L.O.L

From day 2 to day 5, it was all spent dancing, and some nights shopping! After breakfast daily, the bus driver would drive us from our hotel to some dance studio we rented since BDA doesn't have empty studios for our self practice. Then we'd be driven to BDA for lunch at their restaurant, and a bit of free time which we'll either buy the entire rack of yogurt from their convenience store or hit the 2 dance shopping streets!!! followed by class from 2-530! Really enjoyed my time there, though we did pretty basic stuff. But the teachers there are so passionate, patient and detailed in their teaching. And the dancers there are all SUPER TALL AND SKINNY. After this trip I wouldn't even dare to claim I'm tall/skinny or what. :O:O:O And their guys are exceptionally handsome... LOL!!!! partly cos they're dancers HAHAHAH!

And also met Yongxin who's studying there to collect costumes for laoshi (heavy costumes, i came back with 2 hand luggages and my check in luggage was 26kg LOL i couldnt even carry it)

We got lucky on Wednesday night!! Just nice there was a performance and laoshi managed to get free tickets for us, so we went down to the performance hall at Peking Uni to watch the performance and guess what~~!!!! We managed to watch Wang Ya Bin, Shao Jun Ting and Sun Ke perform live!!! Wang Ya Bin did this dance:

She's the original dancer of this dance!!!!

Omg, it was like the best night of all the days we've been there. it's like watching your idols?!?! Shao Jun Ting did a duet of The butterfly lovers w another guy and Sun Ke performed in 2 other dances. I never thought this was ever possible in my entire lifetime!!

Sorry if this part bore you guys out, esp if you all aren't into chinese classical dance :-/ but in case ya'll want to have a more familiar image of who they are, wang ya bin was the girl who danced the ti4 shen1 for zhang zi yi in House of Flying Daggers!

Ok moving on.... here are some photos to illustrate our days at BDA!

It was soooo cold when the wind blew!!

Choreography class with jianglaoshi (:

YOGURT GALORE~~

my legs look like they're gonna touch the ceiling LOL #deception

Oh, this was before our choreography theory class started, which i tried sooooo hard to stay awake... LOL

Cropped top girlzzzz LOL

COLD.

Shenyun/jixun class with guolaoshi! + our piano teacher :D

Nobody ever looks flexible next to silei ~~~TvT~~~

Guolaoshi says I'm an ostrich HAHAHAHAHA. Its a long story~

We went shopping at Xi dan on Thursday and Friday night, and it's really a shopping haven HEHEHEHE. Only down side: their stores closes really earlyyyyyy. and i swear, we almost froze to death while we were walking to the shopping mall on thursday night. It was (god knows what temperature) but the wind was freaking strong!! Even being wrapped in 3 or 4 layers, wearing a mask, ear muffs, gloves and we still felt numb!! That night was crazy LOL SO WAS THE SHOPPING ^^

On friday we had to settle dinner by ourselves and since after 9 the only shops still open are the fast food, yujia and I settled for KFC since it has a more "culturally different" menu apart from the same burgers and stuff.... and why we said that is cos our meal was... THIS:

Black pepper beef rice (in a real big serving, we shared!), Milk tea and egg tarts. OMG. if you think Singapore kfc egg tarts are to die for, you will DEFINITELY DIE FOR China/Taiwan kfc egg tarts!! They're x10000 times better hahah AND CHEAPER TOO.

Not forgetting, one of my loved food there, BING TANG HU LU!

Anw, got a few new iphone casing there and say hi to my new iphone look ^^

This isn't those normal laopok silicon casing, (lol i hate silicon casings idkw) but this is like in a solid material and the ear above the ribbon, IS THE LOCK BUTTON. PLUS ITS NOT SOLD IN SINGAPORE YET. (pls even if it is... it'll be like $20 plus??? ) I bargained this from like around SGD15 to SGD9... and you think very cheap alr right?? Jiayi went to another stall and got it for SGD5 T.T BUT I REALLY LOVE THIS HAHAH.

And many other buys~~ on the weekends we went sightseeing around the usual china places-- The Forbidden City, some gardens, Great wall, Olympic Stadium... and I met amanda chan!! (sorry the photos are jumbled up!!)

TIRED FROM CLIMBING :'(

Our new boots, 2 for 200RMB!

wangqing the MARIE CAT! hahah love the hat and gloves!

artistic shot LOLLL

HAHAHA SO COLD SO WELL COVERED

oh god the great wall LOL. I almost climbed to the top but gave up. And perhaps good thing i didn't climb up with yujia and silei, cos I actl got a fever later in the day cos of the super strong cold winds and we perspired from all the climbing~~ I AM THIS WEAK LOL! Luckily it was the night before we returned back to singapore, so i had a good night rest since we returned to the hotel early to pack our luggages.

The last morning, before we went to the airport, we went shopping at xidan again!! and this is when all the shopaholic self in us unleashed. LOL Esp in the last 15min before meeting time, I BOUGHT 2 CARDIGANS and 1 SKIRT LOL. didn't even realise till yujia told me" you know you bought 3 clothes in 15 min?" LOL almost got another dress but don't have the colour i want alr :'( So after that, it was home sweet home and it was so great to see rain when we touched down. Freak it was so dry in beijing!!!

Home will always be the best ~*v*~ And this is my entire loot HEHEHE:

And yay, ytd met blod for lunch at amk and finally settled my LAKSA craving ^^ also got the christmas present for nigel's christmas partaye gift exchange~ and my mum is more happening than me, she is out now at her company's christmas party LOL WHUT. She locked me inside the house today cos she forgot to return me my keys and i had no keys to go out T.T and today went to meet tongwei and ivonn to get pointe shoes at sonata. ivonn helped tongs and I choose our first pair of pointe shoes and omg i am so excited and scared now of going on pointe (tmr???) !!

Ok, that's all for now!! CYAAAAA ^^ anyway come down scape this saturday cos I'm having a stall for flea w peishi jasmine and peijun~ COME BUY OUR STUFF!!!

And i need a job!!

Goodbye Singapore

2011-12-11T02:25:00.001+08:00

Got to wake up in 3 hours time omggg lol
but anyway, GOODBYE SINGAPORE~~

Hopefully I'll be able to blog when i reach beijing! (if there is wifi). I am already in semi zombie mode so i'm gonna crash soon, after this post. Hopefully it wont be too exhausting, and i'll make it back alive LOL. See you all on the 19th!!! and WHEEE I HOPE IT SNOWS LIKE SERIOUSLY!

I never see snow before :( #noob

Shall enjoy my final night of sweating while i sleep (i dont sleep w air con) before i get all wrapped up in beijing hehee

This was at chingay rehearsal ytd which we almost died after... ok our legs i meant. F1 PIT BUILDING IS SO FAR FROM CITY HALL :'/

Okayyyyy, GONNA SLEEP ALR.

Drop me questions on my formspring so that i know this space isnt dead ok!!!!!!
See ya all! :-*

The night is still young

2011-12-08T04:18:00.000+08:00

OMG HI ALL I AM FINALLY BACK!!!!!!

I'm so sorry for the lack of updates for over a week! Didn't realise at all.... time flies by so fast when you're having fun, LIKE SERIOUSLY. I AM LOVING MY LIFE RIGHT NOW IN ENTIRETY. NOTHING I WOULD CHANGE RIGHT NOW ABOUT MY LIFE ^^

Alright, to compensate for the lack of updates of this space, I SHALL BLOG MY LIFE BEGINNING FROM 29TH NOV OK!!! :) (since I have a feeling I will be quite busy from now but i will blog before i leave for Beijing on Sunday!!!)

29th Nov, Tues:
(yes, there is really a need to write down date and day, because just so you know, yours truly here has lost track of the date and days ~ )

It was, a *inserts positive, crazy word* day, like seriously! I have never felt so happy putting on my HC uniform before, and I finally was (other than the first day i wore it because thats when i was still unaware of the torture ahead 2 years ago...) HOORAY MY LAST DAY WEARING HC UNIFORM AND I ALREADY AM AN ALUMNI NOW WOOOOOO~!

My happiness will be explained by the following GIF...

HAHAHAHAHA LIKE JOKE RIGHT. We were really screaming in the school toilet okay! And after we changed out, we proceeded to the biggest dustbin in school (YES, WE MUST MAKE IT A HUGE AFFAIR LOL) and threw our uniforms inside. Best la, but i cant upload the gif in case i get into trouble...

Even my parents said they think out of the 1.2k ppl in my batch, the happiest person to get out of hc must be me... LOL Well... :// I have had my happy times too la! (pls read prev post if you didnt, but i guess it was on main page for real long enough!) So.. we need to seize the moment so yeah, the crazy acts as seen above LOL

Has a nice dessert at Swensen's after that w Audrey and Rena, and then we proceeded to shop for Audrey's prom stuff! Super successful shopping where we got everything done within 5 hours and had a nice dinner:) Was a really really good day and it didn't even feel like A levels ended just that afternoon. LOL!

30th nov, Wednesday

It was a sleep in and hibernating day. Was supposed to tidy my room which until now, is still in a thorough mess! Met PS for lunch after nua-ing in bed the entire time and after lunch i came home and napped till 830 at night lol omg I am really a polar bear that hibernates in winter. just that there is no winter in singapore. Met blod for supper and then caught Apple of My Eye for midnight movie at AMK later at night and the show was gooood~!!(Y)(Y)(Y)

1st Dec, Thurs
The day A levels officially ends! Supposedly a job hunting day w PS umm ok ya we did job-hunt but till now, we are still jobless T.T Just walked around town where my flatforms decided to die on my with its straps broken, tried to super glue it back t no avail lol. bought a new pair of wedges in the end. Was tempted to get another flatforms but NO, what if history repeats itself?! I'll be wasting money :'( but the flatforms was rlly nice... :/

Met blod for 1-for-1 starbucks drink at northpoint and we finally can sit down at the sofa area to chill!!! and not be stuck to the long table for 12 hours a day! :) Homed for awhile and went t meet PS again for supper at Mr Teh Tarik, which marked the start to a really bad night ahead where i went sleepless cos of the hives and swollen eyes... The hives haunted me the entire night and i scratched the entire night and couldnt sleep it off! God knows what I ate wrongly la pls!!!! I ONLY ATE WANTON MEE AND DRANK ICED HORLICKS?? :'( Was a terrible night and i watched drama to pass time :(

2nd Dec, Fri

Was the first patient at the family clinic, got my medication, had breakfast alone at nearby kopitiam, where the entire place was filled w all the ahgong ahmas, i was the only youngster k!!! \m/ Took med and slept for 4 hours, woke up and the hives were gone, but eyes were still swollen but couldn't care more! Changed and went back HC for HCCD Farewell party!

Played some games, watched montage, ate and most importantly, CAMWHORED!!!! (Y)
(wasnt exactly in the mood that day cos of the swollen eyes :( )

Hmmm so we left SALT centre when it was dark, which has been long~~~ Headed down to Plaza Sing w Zoe to settle on my data plan and got Eskimo !!!! saw pretty christmas lightings otw there *v*

3rd Dec, Sat

(randomly inserted these 2 photos here lol)

It took me awhile to remember what i did on this day but yes, WE HAD SELF TRAINING FROM 8AM-12PM!!!

It was physical torture seriously. Silei was as flex and gross as ever even though we haven't danced for 6 months! Yujia and I were just stuck... LOL and i didn't even have to wait till the following morning for the muscle aches, it looked for me at 11AM alr LOL just imagine how rusty I am!!! but it was a good morning to recap all the stuffs and to stretch! :)

Dad picked me up after and it was a day spent w parents :) Dad brought me for a full body tuina session which was really GREAT AND DIVINE PLS. esp after dance!! then went to pick mum up from work and we headed down to Bugis for lunch, then it rained heavily and we were stuck, cos there was apparently no sheltered walkway :( Shopped awhile at bugis street where i got a skirt, then we headed to OG to shop for dad's shoes and stuff~ went over to the temple to pray abit and my parents got me a bracelet to ward off bad luck LOL HEHHEE I'm religiously wearing it daily ok!!! :)

Homed pretty early in the evening and had a quick sleep of 2 hours, bathed and headed over to Huimin's place where Chow and I stayed over for 2 hours where i watched 1 ep of drama and slept for 30 min before heading out to meet the rest and took a train down to orchard to meet the guys to send them off for Standard Chartered full marathon! at 4am in the morning!!! srsly didnt felt like it was 4 in the morning because orchard was flooded w marathon runners, a sea of blue literally. LOL

4th Dec, Sun

So we sent the guys off for their marathon at 5am, and we walked from Orchard to Dhoby Ghaut, on the way seeing lots of guys marathon runners stopping by the big drain to take a pee. WHICH WAS HILARIOUS + AWKWARD MOMENT HAHAHA. couldn't find a 24 hour macs at all (seriously?) and trained down t city hall and bought our macs breakfast and then we trained again to marina bay and there wasn't any bus service, so we WALKED 2.3KM INTO MARINA BARRAGE. OMG. that was some tiring shit... (to think ppl were running 42km)

While we were walking into marina barrage at 7am+, the first marathon runner ran past us... OMG. the person fly one isit?!! :-O

set down at a weird place and had our breakfast, then we moved indoors and waited for a few hours, even videoed an encouragement video for the guys and whatsapp-ed them so they can watch it and feel encouraged to run towards us :-) After the guys came, rested, and left, we setted off for the finishing line too! Made our way down to Padang and just in time!!!! we reached the "sidelines" and the guys just nice ran past :) Felt so happy for them!! 42km is no joke leh!! I think we were like on a walkathon that day too... my legs were super sore LOL

After cooling down and stuff, went raffles city and got a free drink from Phyllan ^^ hehe then clique headed for lunch at Ajisen's, the guys were so tired they fell asleep LOLLOL. Headed home and died, hibernated another time LOLLOL

5th Dec, Mon
(OKAY BEFORE CONTINUING I WAS TOO HUNGRY I WENT TO EAT BREAD LOL)

So I woke up at late noon and met Blod for my lunch, where she passed me some clothes for beijing trip and we went starbucks for my 1-for-1 cheesecake ^^ the baristas were all so friendly and we chatted w them and they even congrats us for ending A levels ^^ (maybe they were secretly thankful nobody hog long tables for 12 hours a day) aft that went home and slacked awhile, wanted t blog but eventually laziness took over. Met parents for dinner before heading off to town at 9+ to meet peishi and we both headed down to Zouk for RJ/CJ/NY post prom party!!

Was a crazy and fun night, managed to meet lotsa familiar faces and new faces and everyone was just high ~~~ woooooo homed after the partying ended and decided i couldnt make it alive for dance the next morning LOL

6th dec, Tues
Met Russel for lunch at Ambush and then watched Already Famous, and then met Jabez for dinner at Nihon Mura near his place. Was a nice day meeting up w them though separately, 3 of us shall meet up tgt one day aft we're done w all the holiday-ing ^^

7th Dec, Wed

Managed to wake up before 12 without the alarm clock!!! super proud of myself for once. hahahah bought bread for lunch and headed down to hc for dance. was a super tiring day but it was much better than our first session. there was laoshi today but my body just feels much more prepared for the training, as compared to the stiffness and rustiness from the previous self training hahaha! learnt the chingay dance within an hour and there's chingay rehearsal this friday :-O Packed dinner from poolside (BEEN A LONG TIME TOO) and walked over to college (OK THIS IS EVEN LONGER, WHEN DID I LAST DO THIS?) for Beijing trip briefing!! hehehee if not for that, you all think i will step into college again meh!!! I will save the golden moment of my next hc college section trip to be results day LOL (ok fine, maybe dance night'12? LOL)

After the briefing, weiqing and I got too preoccupied w following each other on twitter and exploring apps that... 852 DROVE PAST US !)@#*$)#*%)#(@%)(#)@(% after waiting for a million years... and as though once wasn't enough, we decided to take 74 and IT DROVE PAST US TOO !!! *RAGE* LOLLOL. we're really sotongs la pls HAHAHA. had a relatively earlier day home and uploaded all the photos and finally, got down to blogging!!!!!!

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Happiness is when i think of Sunday we'll be flying to Beijing and going BDA for 5-6 DAYS! ^^ Dancing makes me extremely happy and relieved ^^ STRESS FREEE, EVEN THOUGH I GAIN LOTS OF ACHES EVERYWHERE BUT IT IS DEFINITELY WORTH IT.

and i am trying t gain weight!!! everyone keep telling me i'm much skinnier than before... but i rlly have a small appetite these days! hope the normal days where glutton khaw is alive will be back soon!!!

THIS IS A CRAZILY LONG POST. GOODNIGHT

Pseudo Freedom

2011-11-26T01:55:00.000+08:00

Alright, so I'm finally down to the last paper left for A Levels-- Chem MCQ (No, I honestly do not have any plans of slacking off...)

Today was a good day in a really long time. Finally removed the "I am grounded" rule set by myself and thus, it's time to head out! I've been a really good girl I don't think I've done any shopping ever since that once after prelims, really gooood hehe. Sooo, met the clique for dinner and celebrated belated bdays for WX & HM :) Really nice to see everyone again, always treasured and enjoyed all the times spent with them because it'll always be filled with laughters and all :') And I think they're the only bunch of guys we will ever go prom shopping with without feeling much awkwardness!

Speaking of prom, no I am not going cos I'll be going with HCCD to Beijing! (: Yayyyyy I'm pretty much sure Beijing will be so much more worth it than prom, and post prom, and whatsoever... but the only major crisis I'm facing now is I've not danced for 6 months since Dance Night and I AM STIFF, LIKE VERY VERY. I'm so disgusted by how inflexible I am oh my gawd.... so after A's, while everyone stops mugging, I'll be "mugging" my gong1 everyday!!!! so that I will not diu1 lian3 when I go beijing la pls... HAHA!

Bringing back the topic of A Levels, I'm so glad it's finally coming to an end. The whole experience was... different, from O Levels. In an unexplanable way... perhaps it's the papers, the environment, the people. I guess where we are plays a very significant role in how we perform, our motivation and strive to do well. I have to say college has been a lot of independent work... there were barely anyone to rely on, unless you're really lucky to have found (smart) friends to fall back on (like Zoe who always answers my chem questions!!!^^) It's kind of like a race that everyone has decided to run individually, seldom stopping to help those who're dismayed and stuff... All that we care seems to only be the destination, and somehow it seems like the process of helping and learning didn't seem to matter. I know this is over generalisation, but at least from my point of view this is how it has been, and this is what I've experienced. & sometimes even when you helped someone who fell down to get up, they may just sprint ahead of you without acknowledging once your help. It's a cruel reality and this is so different... I don't know if I ever am gonna be one of those idiots in the future who regret saying how much they dislike college life and stuff and that "I miss jc" and all, but I am 99% sure I won't be saying those.

It has been an eye opening experience for me.... perhaps more towards the negative scale but I guess such experiences, once will be enough. I am, in all entirety, mind and soul, glad that I am no longer going to be tied down by this sick-of-school feeling anymore. And in case you all people out there who are filled with pride and loyalty for the school, no I am not trying to say this is the worst place anyone can ever be in, but at least for me it wasn't the best place to be in. BUT I was the one who made this choice to come here right from the start, so i guess ultimately there's a rationale behind all these realities that I experience which is a huge deviation from my expectations. I am not, in any case trying to degrade or be unappreciative for what I have that "many others wish they have too but never had the chance to". I am appreciative for this learning experience that is different, the wonderful departments and staff in school, the many nice people i've made in this school (but i normally do not associate my close friends with sch) but in all honesty it just isn't "my style".

The fact that we're all tied down by our own expectations and aspirations itself can be a source of motivation and stress at the same time. Throughout the entire period of A levels I was so freaking scared I have screwed it to such an extent the outcome will be of the worst, but I have thus eliminated that thought because I have already sold my notes away HAHA. I guess no matter how insecure we are, we need to have a little faith in ourselves that we can do it to tide through everything. Right now, seeing straight As will really be a miracle and an extra bonus. But what really matters is I've done the best I could given the priorities and commitments I've decided to place on for the past 2 years. But seriously, the most terrifying factor of the entire examinations is that it probably has the ability to decide your (near) future.. which sadly means my concession fares are ending soon and here comes the most dreaded part of adulthood... ADULT FARES! #firstworldproblems

Hope that my 8 months ahead will be a useful and meaningful one, spent with dance and a decent job for myself, and time for my friends and family. & tonight has been a night filled with lots of thoughts and reflections as I tried to recollect some of the past events that... has always left me dumbfounded like i dont know and it seems like i wont ever know why certain things have turned out in such a particular way. Perhaps some things will forever remain blinded to us and the truth kept away from us for our own good, but it is really a pity to see them start to turn stale and slowly disappear from your life. It seems like avoidance, but I don't really know. How can human relationships (no, not even the love kind, the platonic kind) get so complicated in a sense that treating other people genuinely do not always make them think that you're treating them genuinely? This forever remains a knot deep within me as I fail to untangle the complexity of human relations, and more often than not i spend way too much time trying to decode someone's actions and thoughts which is plain stupid imo. Yeah i just called myself stupid i think LOL.

It's been a really long time, probably in fact years where I could finally sit down in front of my laptop and type something complicatingly rational. Usually I'll just sleep it off. but i guess since I have the time tonight I'll just see if anythings flows, and i'm kinda surprised by the amount I've typed.

It's hard to understand the relation between two people. It's hard to understand others. And it can even be hard to understand yourself.

DOWN ON LUCK

2011-11-19T03:53:00.000+08:00

HI GUYS!!!

I'm left with 2 papers for A's and I'll be done! I guess I can say I did try my best even though they could have been done better if I was more calm... but all's done and there's no turning back, I shall await my doom, or good news. Hopefully the latter but really, I'm so uncertain :-| shucks but i've prepared myself for the worse because I SWEAR LUCK IS NOT ON MY SIDE?!?!?!?!
(WARNING: TRUCKLOADS OF UNLUCKY EVENTS AHEAD)

The second week I only had 2 days with 3 papers-- H1 Econs, Chem P2 and Geog P1.
SO SO SO, GUESS WHAT? I FELL SICK W A SORE THROAT AND FEVER THE DAY BEFORE ECONS AND CHEM PAPER. HOW AWESOME RIGHT.

I knew this was it lah... tried to study as much as I can and prayed for the best. I guess I really did try my best given my physical state at that point in time and what's worse wasn't actl Econs and Chem day, it was GEOG.

Think my body was already lethargic and overworked, that's why fell sick right?! And still had t wake up early and pull thru 2 papers... come home bathe and have to study for PHY GEOG alr. Omg I tell you my mind really shut down. Like Auto-shut down that evening/night i swear i felt like shit. Felt like shit because for the 2 hours I was at starbucks (wanted to stay for 5h), I used 3 packets of tissue and countless amount of Starbucks serviets (?) for my runny nose, and I was cold sweating, my eyes were tearing (not crying), my head was throbbing and nothing was going in. WTS. This YJ guy who was sitting next t me at the long table studying phy geog came and left and i was only thru 5 pages of THEME 1. In the end, I ended up crying cos I felt too terrible...my mum came to find me after work and went home w her, died on my bed immediately and my body temperature was like damn high? Zzz but couldn't sleep in ease, woke up at 3:45am and tried to study geog all the way till school time... During the paper my mind was blank. like completely blank. Nothing could explain that kind of mental struggle during that 3h papers (2 essays + 4 CSQ) I felt rlly so terrible i felt like giving up aft 1.5h and go to sleep, my head... it was spinning at such great speed like a tropical cyclone (esp when i saw that cyclone qn) But thankfully i didn't. I guess I really did try my best, and i hope that it'll pay off :'( Seriously worse day of my life.

After lunch w B came home and slept all the way, woke up for dinns and tv, slept till this morning waking up, feeling good. Thinking okay finally all this shit is ending. BUT NO. Just as I was preparing to go out, TOM (Time Of the Month) visited. So as you all know, everytime TOM comes, I'll cramp super badly. Popped two panadols and went out, thinking i'll be fine. Had lunch w QF, Jan and MJ and just when i was about t start studying, I felt super uncomfy while buying my drink and ran for the toilet. Vomited my entire lunch out -,- And was in such severe pain from those cramps i was inside the toilet for 20+ min?? After I finally dragged myself back t bucks, the pain revisited and this time i just lied on jan and started crying omg HORMONAL CHANGES, SO DAMN EMOTIONAL. BUT IT WAS REALLY ONE OF THE WORSE CRAMPS. Toilet run 2nd time and vomit 2nd round felt so damn terrible, hate being a girl DDDD: Really, I envy all the girls who can really be "GOOD FRIENDS" with TOM. for me, it's my monthly enemy! Decided i cant take it anymore and decided to cab home (when I barely read 1 page of my geog notes) Jan and MJ accompanied me all the way t my house... thanks loadssss for taking care of me if not i think i might have really fainted !T.T

So you all think it's the end to my series of unfortunate events? NO THAT IS NOT ALL.
While I finally fell asleep to sleep the pain away, half an hour later it started raining heavily and with the strike of a powerful lightning, MY HOUSE KANA SHORT CIRCUIT..... Zzzzz There was thunder and lightning all over and I'm freakin hell scared of thunder zz wanted to ignore the short circuit and continue sleeping but feared that if i wake up in the evening in a dark house i bet i'll prolly cry (I was alr crying over the phone t B) #coward HAHAHA. So i got my dad to come home t rescue meeee and i guess, this marked the end of my unlucky 3-4 days :-/

On a brighter side, TOM was supposed to visit during Chem+Econs day. So considering it was being nice to torture me less and only came after Geog paper, I can understand why it is being so tyrannic and caused a volcano eruption in my lower body. I so understand... but pls dont do it again T.T I was damn guilty the entire day for completing NOTHING. In fact I slept for 2 days but maybe its true that i need to put health as priority... remaining 6 days got lots to complete!! JIAYOU ME

END IS NEAR.

And this is a real retarded GIF, my first GIF from my iphone since i downloaded the app:(the one on top is the second actl)

HAHAHAHAHAH! DAMN RETARDED DONT JUDGE ME KK
This is my just wake up hair and face... LOL

PS: SELLING MY JC STUFF!!!! ALL MUST GO!!! SELLING AT LOWER THAN ORIGINAL BOUGHT PRICES. PLS FB MSG/EMAIL ME AT ICEYDANCERR12293@HOTMAIL.COM :)
Oh....! to the person who previously asked about buying my stuff on FS, I've just replied/send you an email.. hope you're reading this!

Good night,~ ^^

Not for the faint hearted

2011-11-13T02:19:00.001+08:00

Tired face everyday and an accumulation of eyebags.

Btw a levels suck. Serious.

Internal struggle

2011-11-06T01:01:00.000+08:00

Tiresome eyes and dry cracked lips
Skinny build and heavy (eye)bags
Frizzy hair and allergies

Long nights and silent cries
Papers that stack up high
Black ink imprinted all over
With seconds tickling by

Incoherent train of thoughts
Crush them paper into balls

And then the calendar flips
i'm trying my best not to admit defeat.
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Random thoughts up there... its not a poem or what. just things that pop up to my mind and i just, don't feel like linking them up. My life, if at worst, is currently drowning in an abyss of uncertainty. Like really.

A level is, in 2 days time.
and the above speaks me, myself and I.

Good night!

What are we fighting for

2011-11-02T01:29:00.000+08:00

Am ashamed to say I've kinda forgotten how my blog looks like when I was entering blogger. LOL. I know I've been, disappearing for longggg. If you do not stay in my area I bet you prolly would have thought I've disappeared from the face of the Earth.

And not very surprisingly, most of the old friends whom I coincidentally bumped into all tell me "You look like you've lost weight". Sighhhhh but honestly, it isn't that bad because B has helped me to adjust back to normal eating habits as well as my parents they keep forcing me to eattttt D:

Met them while I was studying overnight last weekend, great to see old friends again, wish I could spend my days w friends chilling everyday, but fret not 27 days later I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT.

We're left w 5/6DAYS :/ Honestly, don't know if I'm prepared don't know if I'll ever feel secured but I guess, no. Keeping aims high enough for myself not because I'm confident of getting them, but because I believe in myself and that there's always a possibility so so we mustn't give up. Studying hasn't been very productive ytd& today cos idk, been experiencing a mental block maybe it's my mind subtle hint to me to rest, else it'll burn out. Plus I only slept 2 hours last night and went to sch early this morning and had math, GP and Geo consult. Right, I've to maximize my time so I don't waste so much time travelling to school. After a day of intensive consultations, my brain was alr saturated till the IP almost more than Ksp already... NOT (LOL) and to top it off w an already semi asleep mind, the moment I boarded 852 i zonked out from Bkt Timah all the way to Yishun and decided to head home early at around 830PM after only 4 hours at starbucks.

At least to make myself less guilty, I read the news every night before I sleep now. And for the remaining 5 days I'm not going to cut myself anymore slack, because the battle's beginning soon. I rmb Mama chong/Ms Mok used to say "It's about peaking at the right time" and "Consistency is key".

Pace myself out, let's hope that slow and steady wins the race.
For now, my eyelids are real heavy so I guess I'll turn in.
Good night everyone!:)

Close enough to start a war

2011-10-27T02:39:00.000+08:00

Finally decided to take some time off studying and spend some time at home~ Thus also decided to blog one proper post and seriously don't know how to begin again...

These days have been pretty much just all about studying and sleeping. Not even that much about eating anymore, LOL what a joke I'm already losing so much weight it scares me. But I feel guilty from spending money, I hope that makes it all better because at least I don't feel guilty from eating. (:

And when I reach home and lie on my bed after a long tiring day, and read BBC News/Times Mobile on my iPhone, I feel like I'm not living my life at all. Lol like within that 12 hours I'm studying and spending time with lifeless paper and ink, so many other things were happening in the world. Change was ongoing, but I remain still (literally, butt stuck to the chair, eyes glued to the notes) And I actually get mixed feelings cos idk... I just felt so and I.... fall asleep after that, halfway reading some news HAHAHAHAHA. That's so me and anticlimax~

I've become someone who feels satisfied so easily, but the satisfaction often derived from studying. Argh, how nerdy is that LOL. I feel satisfied when I realise I've clocked 12 hours of studying and still could go on (OMG THAT'S SICK, HAHA) and perhaps more normally, like today, I felt extremely satisfied just sitting in front of the tv watching tv (duh) and drinking bubble tea HAHA. Eh Please don't say I'm sick okay everyday I see the same group of people at starbucks even though on most days I reach earlier and/or leave later, I've come to witness this guy from RI who REACH EARLIER AND GOES HOME LATER THAN ME. HAHAHA OMG. the only period of time he goes "missing" from my sight is prolly sometimes in the noon, but then you'll realise he appears at night to study overnight (which at times in the morning i see him, i wonder if he had gone home hahaha) And recently I've also heard from a friend that someone from my school was captured on CCTV to study at this place for 24 hours straight LOLLOL SERIOUSLY....!!!!

What has A Levels done to us~~~ Our life.... Or a lack thereof.
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Came to realise the perks of having an iPhone. The best function thus far (besides the countless of photography apps it has granted me to satisfy my camwhoring needs, which will be showcased later hahahaha) been iBooks, because i can now save all my answer scheme/formula list/all the study stuff inside HAHAHAHHAHAHA HOW GEEKY AGAIN YOU TELL ME. This is my life........ or the lack thereof again. hahaha Okay, the best part is that my iphone served as a good substitute to my laptop and it's so all-in-one I stopped using my laptop for close to 2 months alr HAHAHA. Not advertising for iphone though, LOL just glad to have it :)

Been analysing myself alot lately. Don't even know if there's something like that that works, because while analysing ourselves we tend to be rather, urm, too positive and defensive at times. But urm well i dont know how to explain but I somehow linked up my habits to my character... like things i'm so used to, it actually kinda speaks who I am.

Take for example, I can't sleep with my lights off. (don't tell me what sleep w lights on got increased chance of getting cancer blablabla ah LOL) I MUST sleep with my lights on if I'm alone and I don't close my room door. I don't know how this came about or what this speaks about me but... I realise maybe I'm really afraid of being in the dark, I'm afraid of uncertainty, and I fear of being shut on. And I guess it's true to a large extent. Every time I come home and I realise I'm alone, I WILL ON ALL THE LIGHTS IN MY HOUSE (LIVING ROOM, KITCHEN, TOILET, BEDROOM) even though I may only be in my room. Maybe it can be argued that I'm just afraid of being alone, but I guess it's not being alone that I'm scared of, I'm probably more afraid of not having my existence felt and known in a place that I am, that feeling of being insignificant. I'm pretty sure nobody likes that. It's not vying for attention, but probably wish to feel secure in a place that you exist in. OK. WHAT. AM. I. TALKING HAHA I have a serious problem with sleeping at night. On most nights once I close my eyes I dare not open them again.... and for people who know me well enough you should know why...

Aiya I don't even know how to put my thoughts across anymore.

My stomach is growling but I dare not step into the kitchen, cos before I began typing this post I went t fill up my bottle and I got scared by a lizard. LOL Fail shitz. Maybe I'll read some more stuff and sleep. Going school tomorrow for awhile. (SUCKS, HATE GOING SCH) and I'll camp at usual place again:)

Okay, fine I failed. while loading the photos i happily opened my bag and took out a packet of caramel corn and am munching on them now. Happy stomach! (:

Self reward for studying hahaha. FOOD.

Study partner since 2009. HAHA.

My own paranormal activity

Late night study + itchy mouth + temptation of the cheapest & biggest snack found in 7-11 for $1.50

Good night all~~

Graduation Day!!!

2011-10-21T02:42:00.000+08:00

HI GUYS I'M BACK USING MY LAPPY LIKE FINALLY AFTER 9753985739 YEARS HAHAHA :)

I'm here cus i told myself yeah i'll get all the photos uploading and blog updating and stuff done NOW, before i head to sleep because honestly idk when's the next time I'm gonna on my lappy again. I mean, for now, it's a good thing of course! Lesser distractions~

Yes, so actually I just had my GRADUATION DAY in HC!!!! Wowwwwww you know how happy I was seriously the thought of GRADUATION makes me happy.! but I've to say it was a real pleasant day for me (: I mean looking at the montages and all, yeah i guess hc has changed me and taught me alot despite how much I say i dislike and all. But I know, there's still parts of school life that has made me a happier person (:

I'm realll tired now, so I'll just post some photos here!!!

My eyes are rlly cosing on me alr.... GOODNIGHT!!!!! see ya'll soon;)

Don't give up

2011-10-11T00:04:00.002+08:00

So the finalised results are up on ISP. It's honestly very bad so I hope you guys will leave me some space and not ask me about it, unless personally. (And please, when I say bad. I mean bad. Like U-bad. not the "walau i need 1 more mark to get A" bad)

But it doesn't mean that my stand has wavered. I have cried so many times (on my way home.. half way thru doing work when i still cant get any shit on what it is about.. before i sleep...) over the past fortnight but I will still go on strong. I am not going to admit defeat.

I know i may not win this war as miraculously and victorious as in O levels but, I'll keep the faith and myself going. There's only 27 more days left. We can only move forward and conquer this labyrinthine journey. Time will tell, and i guess what Zina told me was right.

A levels isn't a battle of intelligence (thou to a large extent yes it is) but it's a battle of hard work.

& to me, it a battle of determination and perseverance. How much do we actually want something? I'm not going to let my languor take over me anymore. Toughen yourself up babe, cos you know you can do it. And you know all you need to know is that you've done your best, regardless of the results. Never ever give up at this last time. We won't know who won the race when it's not yet the end.

I'll be okay, and I am okay. Thank you all for the concern. I know I have just seemed so cold and aloof recently but that's just me, I think I was the same during O's. I just, don't want distractions and want to have more time w myself.. and a selected few. And don't worry, I'm eating well, i eat 3 proper meals. Even though I know I've lost weight. It's just the exam stress as always. But thank you all nevertheless (:

I am going to end this post now and off to complete some geog essays.

Do your best, break a leg!

& yes, i sprained mine. HAHAHA. (This WAS my working ankle, ie now i have sprained both my ankles before!)

2011 is a year for injuries. Bad year.

Harsh reality

2011-10-07T04:25:00.001+08:00

Hello all! It's like 4am now, I know I haven't posted for longgggg so here is one, trying t slack off while reading some gp. ( and apparently I keep having problems loading photos into blogger zzz)

Been getting back papers and they must have been the worst... Seriously, they're so terrible I honestly am, beginning to doubt myself now. I know I shouldn't and that I must stay strong like for O's... But omg this is a totally different scenario. To those who don't believe that 6 pointers will end up failing their exams right up t prelims, you just haven't met me yet-.- hahahaha idk, it has hit me with the reality that maybe I shouldn't even have fought so hard during O's just t do this well because when you're up there, there are even higher expectations for you. And I dont know, I seem to be losing myself amidst all this crazy mugging we've been indulging in....

What am I seriously doing?! I'm not trying to sound so screwed up and get all your sympathy. Honestly, no. But perhaps I am finally letting a part of my emotions speak... This insecurity is seriously overwhelming me, everyday I'm like thinking of the worst scenario... Ok fine not everyday, probably that 5min when we got back our paper.

And yes, I did break down. Don't call me weak because I know very well ... But it's just that surge of disappointment I guess, now I'm moving on strong, I'm not going t falter.

Yes we may break down and cry but life goes on. Every morning I wake up so freaking tired but I remind myself" be harsh on yourself now or else reality will be harsh to you next year"

Yes, this is the way t go!!!!!!

Anyway, our class practically topped every subject from the back again. NICE.

Alright, I'll end here. It's 31 days t A levels, it's all coming too soon... Wish me luck be cos I'm really in need of them rn. N all th best everyone ~^^

Turning Tables

2011-09-29T00:56:00.000+08:00

Love the song,

the dance, the emotions in this piece.

Must be my fav piece from SYTYCD Season 8

Harsh reality

2011-09-28T03:45:00.000+08:00

So right, it's 40 days to A levels and someone should totally kill me. I haven't even resumed my mugging and totally enjoying slacker life. Plus for the past 2 days my class had math remedial but I just overslept for BOTH remedials.... I woke up when the lesson ends. How great.

Idk how to instill anymore sense of urgency into myself... sigh. tough part of life. but retail therapy and lotsa sleep over the weekend was too good to be true. Spent like $xxx in 2 days oh lord save meeeeee. All my savings are gone :( BUT SHOPPING MAKES ME HAPPY.

This was um... Bugis/failed-Timbre/Acid Bar on Sunday w PS. Yeah damn it my first trip to Timbre was freakin' fail cos it freakin' CLOSED _%*#$(%)#@(% Yupp after climbing that 9 flights of stairs. My legs were literally feeling like jelly~ And my back's been sucha weakling recently it just keeps aching zzzzz!

Btw, I think it's time I gain some weight I'm looking kinda too skinny that even my parents say I don't look healthy anymore :/ I guess 1 kg sounds like a deal.

This was Monday, Jing and I went to visit Borders before it goes into extinction in Singapore at 6:30pm. Sad to see were mad crowds and messy piles of unwanted books. Didn't buy anything, but it was definitely kinda sad to see Borders reduce to this state... I mean everyone wants a beautiful death right? LOL Had lunch at Jack's Place after (thank god for student meal) before heading home. Yeah Marine Parade t Yishun is no joke. I cabbed there and bused back. the difference was 1 hour LOL.

I need to do something about my eyebags too.
Hmmmm. but most importantly gotta do something about reality. Freaking A levels..... :/

Rn, I'll let you see some cute stuff before tucking into bed!

teeheehee~

Good night!! ^^

Post Prelims

2011-09-24T03:23:00.001+08:00

*UPDATED POST*

PRELIMS HAVE ENDED!!!
But it's 3:22AM now. Blog later!!!!!! ^^
*SLEEP FIRST*

*UPDATED*

Okay hello I'm back as promised!!! I had a totally nua day yesterday... Slept in till 130PM and guess what?! I was supposed to have physio at 1PM.... LOLLLOLLOL #likeaboss hmm so i just nua on my bed till 3PM and it has beeen a superrr long time since i did that, I recall this was pretty much my lifestyle back then. I'll sleep till my backaches from sleeping HAHAHA

So ... prelims was one hell of a screwed up I don't even know how to describe it. It just feel as though... I'm going to fail my A's Maybe miracles really do not happen all the time. Just so you know, till now, I still think that it was sheer luck that got me through for O Levels. Don't ask me why, yes I worked (very super) hard so I may deserve the results but I still think I was lucky. It isn't even about the confidence issue in this case. And to bring confidence into the context of my current situation for A's. My confidence is zilch. I thought through so much stuff that's been happening and had happened in the past 2 years and all I could conclude was, What the Hell on Earth did I think I was doing?!

I'm not regretting (I swore to myself never do things that i'll regret. Even if i feel that in the future its regretful, those were prolly things that was what i truly wanted at that point in time) but perhaps, I could have approached the issues in another manner. Idk.... All I really need is for A levels to be over which is in 65 days. Which means it's only 42 days to the start of it now. Holy cow.

That aside, I was almost late for my last paper LOL I had to get down the bus halfway and take a cab to sch and reach just in time hahaha. After that had a nice meal at Ambush and Marble Slab before heading home~ Today I went for lunch w my parents and baked :D Post prelims just sounds good anyway~~ Going shopping later on, PLS LET ME WAKE UP :@

Actl I'm v tired but i told myself i must update else i'll just keep procrastinating LOL so... i'll blog more detailed next round. Eyes closing and my thought are incoherent!!!!

:)

2011-09-22T01:41:00.000+08:00

Okayyyyy some photos from my iphone (HEHEE CAMERA APPS SPAMMM and perhaps spam my face too) last 2 papers :))))

My mac breakfast after overnight studying :))

*Love this swing at the back of Anderson canteen* ^^

hahaha a random photo i edited w the app, dont even have braces yet! Miss my vampires...~ my teeth has moved and my vampires are less obvious now!!

I love this double exposure effect the most la!!!! hahahah

First post from iPhone

2011-09-19T01:30:00.001+08:00

Hellloooo world!! Hehe I know I've been away for more than a week and okayyy here's a short post since im in the midst of prelims....

But my next paper is like on Wednesday!!!!!!^^ #likeaboss yeah so anyway my dad got an iPhone and he gave it to me ^^ so I'm blogging w it now!!!!!!!! Hehehehhe but funny thing is I'm not using my iPhone w any sim card yet:/

Too lazy to move everything over plus it's really gonna be distracting... So I'll just stick to my phone till prelims are over heh:> Plus.. My contract doesn't have data plan so I'll need to upgrade my plan, and honestly I might just want to maintain self control and only have data plan after A levels... ??? Must really drive away all distractions!!!!!

So yeah I think I practically screwed my prelims. Zzz like seriously. K gonnnna sleep already will blog soon, after prelims!!!!

Xoxo

O' lord it's friday

2011-09-09T01:09:00.000+08:00

Nothin' much to say.... school is starting again the prelims gna resume~ so little time but so much to do... SIGH x100000000000000

But finally, like finally, i finally think i'm beginning to understand econs. (yeah beginning, zz) Oh well, at least it's a good start :) Studied overnight last night, continued studying today. I'm feelin' pretty zombified and brain fried now but it's okay, I'm armed with a cup of gong cha and the mugging machine shall start~~~

VRRRRROOOOOOOOOMMMMM~

*sorry that was seriously retarded* that's what I become when I have a lack of sleep and knowledge overload. Till i lose my sanity.... LOL. Nope i'm not that crazy to study overnight again, I'll sleep soon after doing some chem questions. and do some eye mask so i wont look like shit LOL *recall o level period*

I think I got adjusted to my braces life alrd :)

EVERYBODY GOOD LUCK HAVE FUN SEE YOU AT MAF

My very happening week

2011-09-04T03:50:00.000+08:00

Since my previous post, LOTS of EXCITING things happened!!! If you've been following my twitter you'll probably come to know about it~ So just let me start off with Wednesday first!

So wednesday was GP paper~ Nothing much, after GP paper went to amk to study w Zoe, Lyd and their friend was there too. Was damn tired so left for home earlier at around 7 plus? then back home, received a text from weixuan telling me he "got my worst nightmare". At that moment, i seriously didn't know what he was referring to... After a while, I REALISED. IT WAS THAT.... and I remember a few days back my aunt told me there was a letter addressed to me sent to her house as well.

FEARFUL (like srsly) of what might actually happen, I went to the website and checked. And yes, my worst nightmare came true too. GUESS WHAT?
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I GOT SELECTED FOR THE MALAYSIAN ARMY. 3 MONTHS. WTF.

Seriously, my first reaction was "W.T.F" I know I swore off swearing but, really couldn't help it.... & my enlistment date is actually, 11th Sept. Is this like, a terrorism threat or what? Totally feel like crying :'(

Me is such a weakling how t go for army?!?!?!? Really really cannot imagine, and i hope I'll be able to get away with it. Pls wait for my (GOOD) news! (hopefully)

I heard, it isn't easy to get selected kay.... like both genders will undergo balloting, I've been reading forums (thank goodness they're in english so i can unds!!!) then they're like saying in a class of 40, 4 got chosen.... BUT WHY IN SINGAPORE LIKE OUT OF 10, 9 GET CHOSEN AH? (i mean, PR/msian that is!) Sigh.... My REALLY LUCKY event #1

Thursday, went for dental, didn't go school. It wasn't compulsory anyway. Came home after dental and fell asleep... when I was supposed to meet the hccd girls for house visit! Woke up, cabbed down to TPY to meet them, and took a bus down to laoshi's house! ((: It was a really LLLOOOONNNGGGGG walk, but we finally found laoshi's house (: Was greeted by laoshi, laoshi's family, her younger daughter (she calls her mini me 2) and mini me 3 who is 1 week old baby Conan!!!! ^^

Conan is REAL small in size like, 1 week old, he's probably the 3 palm sizes of mine only! And he's really soft.... and definitely CUTEEEE ^^ We just sat around and chit chatted, had many many laughs over our younger times, watching cartoon with mini me 2 HAHA and watching Conan fall asleep (: Awwww hehe so cute! So that's our teachers day celebration! :)

After the house visit, we all got something to munch on at the bakery at the mrt station then me & TY decided to go to the airport to study. Went to Coffee Bean and okay, conducive but we weren't in the mood at all... Just felt like sleeping LOLLOL AND THEN, LUCKY EVENT #2 CAME!!!

This US Guy, who's name tag has the APPLE logo printed on it (he looks our age/younger!!!) , approached us and asked if there was anyone sitting at the empty table next to us. (no), so he sat down... and we just continued w our work. And I was a loser, I couldn't understand his accent when he initially asked if there was a Starbucks, I had to ask Teoying if he was really saying Starbucks, HAHAHA so loserrrrrr. More loserish was, we didn't know which terminal starbucks was at so we were #faillocals93 HAHA. Moving on, while we were diverting our focus back to our notes, the guy began talking to TY.

AND THEN HE TOOK OUR THIS SET OF GRAND STAND F1 GRAND PIX TICKETS AND HE ASKED IF WE WANTED IT, FOR FREE.

According to him, he bought like 5 sets and already gave away 4, so that's the last set. he bought it but he's already flying back to the us (THEN WHY BUY?!) and he has no friends to watch with. LOL. mind you, the tickets cost like 1K +++ SING DOLLARS!!!!!! OMG. and he bought 5 sets, JUST KILL ME.

AND WE WERE JUST SHOCK, MAYBE THIS IS WHAT YOU CALL CULTURAL SHOCK HAHA, THAT A COMPLETE STRANGER HAD SUCH A NICE OFFER, THAT WE REJECTED IT -.- -.- -.- SERIOUSLY LOLLLLL we totally regret therafter, cos everyone on twitter was like saying we're stupid.... LOL

Hey, NO GREED NO GREED. LOL I WAS JUST, PURELY LUCKY FOR THE 2ND TIME EVER. IN 2 DAYS.

But wow seriously, I was telling teoying maybe he's Steve Jobs or Tim Cook's son... or relative HAHAHAHA

Friday, GOT MY BRACES ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*camwhore alert*

(thats the baby winnie the pooh i never fail to hug to bed every night hehe #kidmoment )

The last 2 photos are from my webcam hence the stark contrast in photos quality~

hahaha okay look okay right? but i need to revise my smile!! cos after today at sprouts, I realised i look like a retard now HAHAHAHAHA. Attempted to study overnight but fail, fell asleep at like 3. LOL (when i only started studying at 10)

Woke up today, headed down t jurong east to meet Jabez Russel Jx and jabez friend to study~ They had to wait for me to eat my porridge HAHAHAHA. like, after they eat finish 2nd serving, I'm still struggling w my porridge, ~ Studied for about 5 hours?? and my contact lens dropped out 4 times... !!

Then met Tongwei and Ruiling at Clementi at 6 for dinner, where i had porridge AGAIN. then my lens dropped out grand total of 7 times by the end of the day i gave up wearing and was half blind. Bused down to UCC for Sprouts finals and was happy that laoshi's item got the most popular item and zuyou was the best dancer!!(: It was great to meet up with the bigggg shhk family again after a long long time, and rlly cannot wait to go back for class after A levels! ((:

Cabbed home after cos I was like... half blind?! HAHA wanted to study but fail. zzz.

So, for the past 3 days i studied damn little. LIKE REALLY WASTED MY TIME. ZZZ IM GONNA SLEEP NOW AND MAKE SURE I STUDY PRODUCTIVELY TMR/LATER. I'm so guilty seriously. Just let me whine for one more sentence ARRGHHHHHH :'( and i guess i'll be wearing my specs for now cos i keep throwing away my contact lens cos they keep giving me problems i now have 0 lens left for the left side 3 pairs left for the right LOL

Good night everybody HAVE A GREAT SEPTEMBER HOLIDAYS~ :)

Fix You

2011-08-31T01:13:00.000+08:00

It's close to 1AM now and I know I should already be sleeping, because i've got GP Prelim paper waiting for me in school in 7hours 8min (according to my countdown timer). SIGH. But I'm still here waiting for my hair to dry~ And I just feel so unprepared :| Actually, I've never really felt prepared for any GP paper before. I totally lack the confidence in myself to think that I can do well for any English paper, -.-

But anyways, I went to school last Friday and it was a bad decision. Bad, like BAD. Cos there was massive traffic jam on BOTH sides of the road along (upper?)Bkt Timah Rd cos BOTH SIDES were hindered by accident that morning and it was raining... even the office receptionist came late and when I reached school at 7:50AM, my GP teacher haven't even reached school. ('Cause I went to the reception to get my OCP in advance at 8AM and my gp teacher just walked in...) And it was a wasted GP lesson cos the weather was so cosy.... and fuzzy..... & THERE WERE ONLY 6 PEOPLE IN CLASS LOL. My GP class is way too awesome, our attendance have barely reached double digit in a long time.... (BTW, My GP class is split up so theres only 12 people in my GP class so considering that, HALF THE CLASS TURNED UP..) now that doesn't sound as bad? LOL So after GP, at 930AM, my last official lesson in HC ended! And we just spent the next half hour (for me) to try to take as many photos w people as i can. But, I only managed to take w my classmates, and not even all of them :(

Haven't uploaded the photos, 'cos I'm ~~just too lazy.~~ too busy mugging. LOL. So here's one from Cheryl's album:

Anyway, the Mixed Veg Stall auntie was nice cos she treated all J2s that day to Free Drumlets/Fish Fingers/Chicken Patties/Any fried stuff on display HAHA MY CLASS GUYS TOOK SOOOOO MUCH.... :O I left and daymmmm, there was still a traffic jam and I was late for dental by about ~30min... but my dentist was nice and didn't ask me to reschedule. Reason being, HE WAS CAUGHT IN THE JAM THAT MORNING TO WORK TOO HEHHEH.

Yupp so, tomorrow's prolly the last time most friends will see me in normal teeth!! Braces g'na be up by Friday and there's no paper on Thurs + its tchrs day so.... :/ HAVING MIXED FEELINGS NAO. Idk if i should feel excited or what. LOL

Yeah, so one last photo of me in normal teeth! This was last fri i thought it was a memorable day cos my last "official" day wearing hc uniform so yeap.. but looking cui n all cos i just woke up from a nap! LOL

Oh, went for my first physio session on Mon morning. For my ankle+knee. It wasn't too bad... but it was a rainy morning and I just felt so sleepy during the whole session! Plus, when I was made to warm up on some gym machine (the one like we're walking, we peddle on smth one....) the physiotherapist laughed at me cos she said i actl look like i was dancing :S It was kinda awkward cos there were 2 others in that area and they just turned and looked at me and I felt so self-conscious HAHAHAHA.

So, I think I should pack my bag and go to bed now. And yes, dig out my entry proof first :/

Here's some photos from Cadence last week,

(forgot to rotate the picture but since its food i guess its the same)
My classmate made this chocolate bars last week for our CT lunch and I SWEAR BY MY TASTEBUDS THEY WERE GODLIKE, PROLLY THE MOST DIVINE CHOCO BARS I'VE EATEN. (COS THERE'S OATS, HONEYCOMB AND MARSHMALLOWS) I've thus called her my shifu and gotten the recipe!!!!! Don't know when I'll be able to make and EAT them again...

Good night and good luck all for Prelims!!!! ^^

2 years

2011-08-18T02:32:00.000+08:00

Actually I just realised my official days in this schools are numbered (finally?:O) Like it's 12 days to prelims and once prelims start, "official school days" will seem unofficial too LOL But yeah it's true I can't wait to get out of this school but nope... I will never forget the people who were with me throughout this 2 years :)

10S68 (sigh, couldn't find a proper class photo but this looks the most decent and recent w our junior class!)
I think I kinda share a love-hate relationship with my CT class... Like I'm so glad we're such a mischievous bunch and like slack and stuff... forever (nearly) there as the last in all subjects LMAO. I know I'll never enjoy myself as much as if i were to be in another CT.. but this is kinda like a comfort zone when i am out of my original comfort zone.. Idk if it's good or bad cos. I think sometimes we can go really overboard and it's not very nice! But still... I bet we're one of a kind in this sch yeap~~ ^^

My class girls~ The people that I spend more time with during curricumlum~

The SHHK family, so grateful to be able to be part of them, learnt so much from everyone last year, rlly can't wait for A's to be over to go back!!!!!!! DANCE~~

Sec sch clique!! Love the fact that we're all still in contact and meet up frequently~ Soooo thankful because laughter always exists when you all are around!!! ^^

Lydia; my long lost primary school buddy whom we crossed paths again in JC and better still, in the same lovely CCA (L) I am so thankful for the past 2 years because it brought us closer and one of the people I can turn to in this school :')
Zoe; my tallie partner during CCA, we stand at like the same spot for many many of the dances till we may just automatically move to that space when doing formations sometimes hahaha! miss smarty pants who answers all my chem qns!!! ^^ and recently the weekends at amk lib and our dinner/short lunch breaks (brownies!!)

But more importantly, because there's HCCD!!! Batchmates, seniors, juniors, laoshis... they've given me the BESTBESTBEST times I can ever have in this school... Because of CCA times, I feel that school isn't all that detestable... even though it gets way more tiring than attending school, but I still do enjoy (though i do whine sometimes hahaha!!) Even though we're not perfect, but my choice to come hc was correct cos of hccd ^^

Not from HC, but still been there during these two years. PEISHI ^^ So glad our friendship can come such a long way~ We did have lots of ups and downs for the past 6 years but I am so glad I can still hold this friendship close to heart today, tomorrow and hopefully many more years to come!!!!!

Of course, there'll be B!!! ^^ Needless to say, she is a known figure on my blog ^^ hahaha From mugging to eating to shopping and all~ our friendship is also 6 years and counting and thankful we have become closer since 6 years ago! ^^

There were so many friendships that I had in the past 6 years that didn't work out... people who were once so dear and close to me, we all eventually drift apart. Yea shit happens and we feel sorry but sometimes life really goes on. We're all still friends at the end of the day but probably not as close anymore.. but it's okay! Because to me, the good times I had will always be kept close to my heart, I'll never forget anyone who've made me smiled :) Life goes on, and we move on! Just gotta cherish those who've decided to continue this journey with you~~ ;)

but most most most most most importantly, the greatest part of this two years have gotta be....

YOU TWO ^^
Due to their close to celebrity alike statuses, I shall not disclose much details here. you can read the archives HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.

In conclusion, being friends is easy, but finding a true friend is hard~...
Needless to say finding a boyfriend SIGH I THINK I WILL JUST BE #FOREVERALONE......

Good night!

It's like a silly old tale

2011-08-16T02:49:00.000+08:00

I think I'm supposed to be fast asleep now. Like, there's school tomorrow BUT I HAVE TO BLOG THIS!!!!

To all who love taiwan dramas.... this is a MUST watch!!

Oh my gosh... I LOVE dramas where Rainie Yang is in!!! She's just so good and natural and cute and everything she needs to be in the show and most importantly, she's super REAL in her acting. Well, even though I think the cause of how they got "married" is ridiculously unacceptable, but c'mon it's a drama and I swear I cried in 17 out of 18 episodes including the last one which is a happy ending!!!

This drama just ending airing yesterday night and every monday night is like my time to watch a new episode~ So i just finished watching the last episode!! Sigh wish there were more episodes! I think I'm a true blue crybaby lahhhhh my friends who watch tell me they don't even cry THAT much watching the show LOLLOL but even my mum watches it!! LOL and she cries too LMAO. Want hear more ridiculous? MY DAD WATCHES TOO. In fact, my mum watches and knows more drama than I do man....

This is definitely one of my favourite along Hi My Sweetheart, ISWAK and Autumn Concerto!! Sian now my monday night come home nothing to watch already :(

Yeap this post is seriously redundant right but I share good stuff w ya'll~~ Heeee :) OH and this show has Xiao Gui!! Was always neutral about him but i think he is damn cute in the show LOLLOL And yes, FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME, I'm sucha craze over all the drama stuff and showbiz ppl LOLLLL.
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That aside, I don't think there's much to update still??? BEEN STUDYING EVERYDAY so what am I supposed to blog? hehhehh. Actually I do have something I want to pen down but once I press "Create Post", my mind goes blank URGGHH.

Yeah so anyways I've come a conclusion that no matter what we should learn to cherish everything that we had, be thankful for the blessings we once had and be optimistic about what lies ahead. No matter how blurry and uneven the road ahead may seem like, there's always light at the end of the tunnel~

Goodnight all!!!

Again

2011-08-11T02:10:00.001+08:00

It's 2:02AM now and there's sch later... like after almost 6 days? Gosh, R.E.A.L.I.T.Y... !! Anyway I've extracted 2 teeth out rn and if you think my expression above looks weird, it's prolly cos it's taken 2 hours after the extraction and my mouth was still feeling pretty sore HAHA. Eating's a chore now srsly but I know it'll only get worse after next week when I extract 2 more :'( OKAY but i know it'll be all worth it~

Everyday's like a mugging day. I hope all these hours I've spent studying will really pay off well in my future.. like I'll do something meaningful to repay back to the community. Else I'll feel really guilty for taking away all these hours to people who may just need them to survive a lil while more.. :(

Lots of things been running through my mind man and there's like way too many little things to pen down but those thoughts were all at-the-moment thingy and it just doesn't feel real to pen them down sometimes. but well yeah, I guess sometimes disappointment comes along with someone falling short of an expectation you had for them. Never expect, never expect. But easier said than done. Loooolllll nevermind.

It's just about 2 mths away from graduation day btw and yeah, these 2 years felt like freakin 20 years.... LOL. but I knw I'll miss HCCD and some of my friends... Yes I've met genuinely nice and real people here so I guess... that's something good. :) At least, I'll have something to be thankful for (so people will not say I'm being ungrateful) But I know i'll still get to spend time w hccd cos of Beijing trip and Chingay 2012 :D Yeap decided t join in the end... changed my mind last min cuz initially I was scared that my schedule will be tied down and all.. but after much elaborate and careful planning of my first 3 months of post A levels, i think committing myself to dance is never considered a burden. So yeap! Plus i found out hccd and andance are doing the same chingay item so yay!:)

I'll be waiting for the day I can munch on popcorn normally again. 2AM and I'm craving for some Garrett's... maybe I should sleep it off instead! Good night peeepzz. Just popped over here to let ya'll know this space is surviving anws. haha MORE TO COME ^^

Sleep tight xx

Plus One.

2011-08-08T00:47:00.000+08:00

National Day's in 1 day time!!!! Another year top on for Singapore again~~ Love that this year Wednesday is school holiday too!! Can say that this week gonna be a one day school week cuz my Friday only got 1 lesson heheheeeeee.

Anyway, nothing's going much in my life rn.. except that I'm studying everyday. Okay perhaps something's lined up tmr! There's national day celeb in sch, which I'm still deciding if I should go. Then there's STJ after @ Seoul Garden, which prolly will be my final feast cuz right after STJ, I'm extracting my teeth for my braces!!!!!! YES THE MOMENT IS HERE IMMA PUT BRACES PROLLY ~ NEXT WEEK?? Excited and scared at the same time... hope i won't look too different!!

Yeap so that's for tomorrow, and oh for those who requested for picture of my mindmaps posted up... here's one! (Sorry my comp crashed, so this is the only i retrieved from twitpic. cos i'm lazy to find my mindmaps out in my pile of notes....)

Not related but this is B& my study table at the library lmao the messssssssss....

& TO END THIS POST, I SHOW YOU ALL MY BABY PHOTOS OKIE ^^

MY NURSERY CLASS PHOTO HAHAHA SPOT ME?????^^

My current fb profile pic!!! hahahah so cute we got same mushroom head~~ LOL
PS: those who dunno, I'm the younger one hahahah

Looking reallllyyyy happy hehehehe ^^

hahahah the reason why i uploaded this photo was because i did the "WU DAO" sign!!! HAHAHAHA

At sentosa when I was 4, i think the photo above kinda resemble my current look now!!!

my sis commented on fb that i look like im eating the wood ~.~

MY SLEEPY FACE, STAYS THE SAME AFTER SO MANY YEARS. IM BORN LIKE THAT LOL.

My 4th birthday. look at my sis HAHAHAHAH

posted this before i think... love this!!:)

ME WHEN I'M A FEW MONTHS OLD! My sis was only 5... omg she's 23 now!

THATS ME!!!!! CRAWLING LOL

My mum says this is her favourite ^^

I really know how to pose for camera since young -_- hahahah

MY FAVOURITE CHILDHOOD PHOTO!!!!! Me and most of my maternal side cousins!!! I'm the youngest in this photo okay... HAHA that little girl in yellow at bottom right lol...

Me and my twin cousins!! CUTE RIGHT!! them i mean hahahaha :D

happy baby buddha HAHAHAHA

LIKE THIS!! MY SIS ALSO LIKE THIS!!

I'm just a glutton since young. PROVEN :) hahahah

OKAY GOOD NIGHT ALL!!! ^^

August

2011-08-01T22:44:00.000+08:00

Probably the only photo I have in my laptop rn cos haven't been out nor loading in photos from my camera... Anyway it's AUGUST alr wtheck. July flew by like really really really!!! FREAKKKK ):

It's not just august... It's also the HUNGRY GHOST FESTIVAL :S :S :S ohmy.... Don't dare to return home too late... even from studying HAHAHA just now i so scaredy cat i ask my mum come down to fetch me cos I didn't dare to take the lift alone -_- PARANOID DAYS. LOL

Slightly scarier, tomorrow got Econs essay test but I haven't study finish, but don't intend to continue studying 'cause I'm watching tv now and later gonna watch new episode of my taiwan drama then sleep. LOL tomorrow.... shall see.... LOL test my luck??? :(

About 10 times scarier, PRELIMS IN 29 DAYS. OMG. OMG. So totally not prepared but I have to say the amount of stuff I understood and learnt from studying last week is probably more than what I learnt in school the past 7 months. SIAN. shows how much I'm lagging hurrrrr.

Then, about 100x scarier than prelims is COUNTDOWN TO A LEVEL LEFT 98 DAYS. Please someone should just stop time!!!!!!!!!!! Just thinking of the amount of GEOG to study kills... even 100 days also not enough LOLZZZZ.

Having that said I'm going to bathe watch drama and sleep alr. Will update proper sooon.... hopefully w peekchas!!!! STAY TUNED~~ ^^

If I had the money...

2011-07-30T00:32:00.001+08:00

I'll buy all these :

Window online shopping is really badddddd )))):

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

Gone

2011-07-28T00:24:00.000+08:00

HARRRROOOWWWWW EVERYBODY~~~

I'm so sorry for not updating for the past week!!! I have pictures but... y'know whutttt. MY LAPTOP CRASHED ON THURSDAY NIGHT. LIKE CRASHED. And the last time I back up my data was, half a year ago. Omg. So. Everything's Gone.

Gone. Gone. Photos, videos, documents everything... Thank goodness Facebook exists for a reason and I'm a religious uploader of photos onto my FB. I can download them back. Even though not the original resolution :( But I can also retrieve photos back from my Blogger (: But videos.... SIGH. FB should have the download video function too right. ALL OUR DANCE VIDEO!!!! Sian.... But thankfully enough I J2 already, NO MORE PW. So all the freaking PW stuff in my laptop, thanks for disappearing in my life man. but if I J1 I might probably wanna commit suicide HAHAHA.

So that's that. Explains why I've been pretty stagnant online lately. Okay, actually not quite LOL. I brought my laptop to the Sony Service Centre on Saturday, and found out, to what I have predicted, my warranty ended a week ago DAYMMMMMM. But thankfully, nothing was "wrong" even though my laptop went nuts it just needed reformatting so it was FOC. :) If not I might just curse my tough luck....!

We had JTS on Saturday too, with catered buffet! GREAT DINNER I ATE LIKE A DINOSAUR. LOL. Nottttt quite compared to the guys buttttt, i did eat alot! And we revealed our Angel-Mortal thingumz and felt that it was pretty socially awkward LOL. So we played Mono Deal on our own, and got one of our junior class junior to join our game. The rest were pretty much playing games or balling LOL. Left earlier 'cause my head was gonna explode.... waited like hell long for a cabby and I just died on the bed the moment i reached home. Idk why my head was in such extreme pain too!!:(
& JTS is probably the only to-date photos I have to upload in my blog now :(

Look at baby tigger at the background!!! Audrey's bday pressie we got for her :D

Rare scene to see so many people, still got some missing though :)

Nothing much about my life thus far. Been studying everyday after school. 33 days to Prelims, 103 days to A levels. And I got sooooo much to catch up and study :( I finally broke my record of not ponning any lesson/school for a month, because I begin to feel that going to school for boring lessons is a waste of my time and I should probably doing my own revision instead. Seriously, all I do in class is stone. Lectures too. Because the teachers go so slowly~~~ really, my ct reflected to my mum the other time that I don't really quite pay attn in class and easily distracted. LOL they should feel glad instead because it meant I did my work, got the presentation and answers correct and they're just going too slow for my pace. Normally when I'm attentive it's when I'm at a question that I don't know or I didnt do my work, hence too busy copying answers LOL. Sigh but what to do..... I'll learn to apply my tacticial movement again. LOL.

Plus, now my fridays end at 930???? SERIOUSLY, LOL. and I can't leave the school till 1. I can't study in school. Like rlly, i end up sleeping in the library. Therefore, I'm wasting valuable time of my life that could've been put to more productive usage other than going to school.

Not instilling any anti-school feeling or what, but I just feel that ironically jc life has given me much less freedom than secondary school life. I know there's things to learn and benefit from each and every lesson and I'm not being cocky that I know my stuff well and all. In fact my grades are not as good as most of the ppl in my school and I know what's the best studying method for myself.... People don't get the wrong idea k!!

Anyway everything's ending on 20th October GRADUATION DAY. So, less than 3 months to go. LOL Press on~~~ And yes to those asking if I'm going Prom, nope I am not! I won't be in Singapore :)

That's all, I'm gonna attempt to finish my geog essays before tucking in. Freaking long day end at 330 tmr, but my mum has agreed to let me declare an off day on Friday LOL

short update

2011-07-21T01:44:00.000+08:00

Almost forgot the existence of this space man... everyday i'm studying like there's no tomorrow. 109 days to A levels and my BT2 results just tell me that I need to work so much harder~ zzzzz
Can't wait for everything to end altogether. Back to the no life months. I'll save money not go out after this week. Just me and my notes.

DISCIPLINE DETERMINATION PERSEVERANCE
NEVER SAY DIE~~~~
(will definitely use the trip to BDA after As and no more potato sack uniform and can work for own money no need feel poor anymore days to make me work harder)

Some photos from Ballet Under The Stars last Sunday.

Okay i'm gonna sleep. freakin' long day in sch tmr only end at 330 and only got 1 break. Damn sian. But now friday i end at 930!!!!!! But cannot leave sch, also SIAN.
Today's racial harmony day and this gonna be the first year i'm not gonna be enthu n wear ethnic costume alr zz

K i'm sorry for sounding so miserable and tired and whatsoeverrrrrr LIFE IS SO CRAPPY.

KEEP CALM AND CARRY ON

GOODNIGHT!

No other reason why

2011-07-17T03:45:00.001+08:00

Omggg kk i'm really tired now~ :O But I promised to blog tonight so I'll whip out a post before i knock out hahaha.

Nothing much really happened this week besides on Thursday, we had half-day and elections for new hccd exco afterwards :) So I've finally stepped down and i'm cca-less now. my dancer lines all gone now my legs not toned anymore, i'm just a lump of fats yuckszx ):

The new QMs - Vanessa & Audrey :)

Guess I'll probably miss being an aunty whenever we need to buy makeup or haunt for costumes. Walking all over Singapore (rmb dance night, I walked bugis street alone for 5 hours like 5x just to find a suitable top for batch dance) and getting all the cheap and good deals for makeup. & the night before syf, staying back to steam 30 sets of costumes in salt was no easy feat. staying up till 2am to stick sequins... messing around with our wardrobes which we kinda gave up on keeping it clean HAHAHA.

Had old & new exco dinner at PS after, was a good dinner with so much laughter and small talks haha. felt like a friday seriously. & it was sure relaxing~~~ because friday i ended lessons at 930AM-.-!!! super lame. Now I finally know how jabez audrey and hanrui feels whenever their friday ends at 930 LOL. Thing was, friday we only have 2 lessons, (3rd lesson in btwn the 2 lessons is H2 econs, which 4 of us doesn't take) GP in the mrng and Chem from 12-1. Our chem class is divided and the 3 of them are in the same GP & Chem class while I'm in the other. So on thurs our chem tutor decided to swop the class for Friday's chem lesson so I had no chem lesson in the end.... explains the 930!! LOL.

But I'll spend it in the school library to nap as always since we can't leave the school till 1. Sian, my sneak out place got found out i think, and security has tightened up!! ): LOLLOL Ok here comes to interesting part when we were in the library!!! Our library has this "cosy corner" where students can go in and relax, play board games or take a rest. It's the room that we like to go cos we can take short naps in btwn studying but on friday, someone went in before we did, LOL. let's call this guy A. so guy A was taking a nap when suddenly, the librarian brought a group of thai teachers on the school tour and they came to the library. (Cosy corner has like pictures of the sch heritage and stuff yea) So the thai teachers whip out their cameras and started to take photos of cosy corner, with Guy A still sleeping LOLLOL. At this point in time, we were alr trying our best to control our laughter like... omg imagine the guy open his eyes and see "paparazi" in front of him HAHAHA. Then, the guy sure did woke up, cos the peace got disrupted. and thing was, librarian went "it's okay, just continue~" SRSLY LOLLLLL. Guy A just awkwardly packed his stuff and left the room awkwardly x1000000 saying "sorry" to the thai visitors. LOLLOL.

Idk if I depicted the scene in a funny manner. But I swear I almost rofl!!! Imagine you sleeping and waking up to "paparazi" and had to quickly evacuate yourself in such a weird situation.... I mean if it was me I'd have been cursing sia like super embarrassing!!! but that incident sure did make my day! LOL

K back to topic, today I went to watch Sprouts! Being the bimbotic self as I am (trying not to be), I didn't know how to get to Stanford Arts Centre so I just blindly followed Ruiling & Aaron and we walked and walked and I finally stopped after a traffic light and told them "hey can someone lead the way I'm really lost." And Aaron went, "what. look up!"

Lol and when I looked up, there was a big sign reading "Stanford Arts Centre". LOL WE REACHED -.- Arghhhh super DB moment LOL. Laoshi's piece was great, got goosebumps and bianca edmund peisi zuyou were great too :-) After that studied for awhile before meeting my family and brought my malaysian cousin shopping at bugis strt then headed for dinner.

Watching Ballet Under the Stars tmr w WQ!!!! :):)

Oh yeah, here's a snapshot of my study scheduler for those who asked on my formspring (it's rlly a snapshot. got reminded when I was blogging just now so i webcammed it LOL)

The monthly scheduler within the scheduler to outline my main activities and stuff. This was April, see almost everyday had "CCA" on it LOL

This month's!

The weekly planner(right behind each monthly scheduler) with big and sufficient space to plan each day's study schedule and write down homework and stuff!

Yeap, I got this from Popular at about $6 I think (prolly 5.90) but I can't find them in Popular anymore... count myself lucky!

K gonna sleep, good night!!!:)

The Foolish People Around

2011-07-13T01:43:00.001+08:00

Peishi's bday celebration last Saturday:

Everybody's turning 18~!!!! woohoo

Anyway got back some papers alr. Idk... of course there's like a vast improvement from BT1 because I studied this time but some of the papers which I really did studied for, they were really quite underperformed. Omg shit this feeling of self doubt everytime, first during O's and now again during A's. Nvm I can do this I can do this... \m/ I'm not someone who'll give up easily!!! I can do this~~

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Life is pretty much a joke these days, so many shit happening and o.m.g I really don't know what to say. But well I'm glad there're always people around to be there for me esp like just nowwww. And I'm just getting tired of things around me I really need a getaway from certain stuff. I am beginning to enjoy alone time, much more than I already do. And pls don't think I'm weird. People always think it's weird when like they see people going out on their own. But I seriously do not see what's wrong. What's wrong with wanting to be alone for awhile? Being alone doesn't mean being lonely. What we fear is loneliness, not fear of being alone. So I guess why I tend to enjoy times on ma own alot is because I can spend time with myself but yet I do not feel lonely :}

On a side note, school has started but I still haven't really adjusted back my body clock, as you can see. LOL. last night i even slept at 3am and looked like a zombie in sch today hurhur LOL. And it's wednesday already, weeks are flying by and it's just, 1.5months from prelims!!!!! Zzzzz what is this man. Anyway I finally saved up enough to reward my bad day with a new pencilcase. Haha retarded I know.

I've been really broke these days and I can say it's not exactly the best of days I'm having ): But I know, things will get better they will be better~ All the things we wish for it to end will end. I need to start believing again, but it's kinda tough when at times, you realise people don't remember the things you say. It's like we remember the things they say more than they do. And then you start giving up speaking and telling them things because it's better to realise they do not know than to be reminded they do not remember.

But it's okay, everything is ending in 139days. And a new chapter will begin. Hopefully it'll be not be like O's, when I look forward to a new start but they gave me 2 shitty years. LOL but i guess this time it'll be different because I won't look back!! Nothing much to look back at anyway. The only things I'll miss is going against the school rules because that's the only happening things in my 2years. LLOLLOLLOL. & perhaps, meeting some people that matters :)

Alright that's it for now. I'm sorry for the slightly sad tone of the post cos I'm rlly quite down now. ~
Goodnight!

Did You Know

2011-07-11T01:53:00.000+08:00

......

It's exactly 120 days till A levels!
zZz zZz
I know right, SIANNNNNNN.

141 days till 29th Nov , my last paper which is Chem MCQ MUAHAHA okay can't wait. seriously. anyways i should be sleeping. no idea how to finish my I&I sighz. school again, kill me plozzzzzz. dunno wth am I typing. haha terribly broke. shall start saving upupupz

Goodnight!!!!

PS: Love the smell of The Body Shop shea butter body lotion lingering on my skin mmhmm~
PPS: Hate the stuffy humid dry hot weather makes my skin gets allergies and rashes but thank god i saved my own face haha

TGIF

2011-07-09T02:24:00.001+08:00

Yessss that's my tired face while trying to study for chem last week. I think I can religiously have "TGIF" as my title for all my posts regarding a friday school day. But yesterday's was seriously lame. I went to school, slept in library from 830am to 12pm then went for chem tut for 1 hour and school ended.yeap. 1 lesson cos gp tutor wasnt in sch. like how free am I right. haha

Went down to OC on ma own tried to read I&I articles but seriously bored me to death. Decided to window shop while waiting for time to past then okkk fast forward met up with the clique had dinner at Hot Tomato where the VJ peeps were really late~ But we had a good time nevertheless. Why do we need to meet 5 people in heaven when I already met such angels in my life!!! SEC SCH FRIENDS DA BOMB :D

Bad thing about instax is you can't afford to look unglam cos there's only one take. #myfringefail zzz but loveeeeee ^^ went Daiso with HM to walk walk while the rest caught transformers. BO LUI AH $$$$$$$

Oh yeah I met an old friend at the mrt station like really old okay, it's a classmate that I haven't met since P6 graduation HAHAHAHAHA. Was quite cool catching up with old friends during the train journey and then i met phyliloh at yishun haha day was thus... TGIF~~!!! GOOD!!!

Ok good night :)

Temporary Liberation

2011-07-08T01:38:00.000+08:00

Haven't got around to blogging properly ever since my Blocks ended... cause i got caught up with watching taiwan drama HAHAHA okay here for some picture story okay

3rd July 2011- SYF Presentation @ Esplanade

Met up with Zoe and Lydia, wanted to study which was quite fail. I was clearly in my holiday mood, (hence I also completely screw up my Chem paper on the 5th. there goes my aim not to get any U this term -.- ) Studied for prolly an hour, then met Wenqi, got flowers, met Yvonne, and went Just Acia for dinner. I was starving mad and it was thus a satisfying meal hehe we headed down to Esplanade and went to our seats. Love being in Esplanade!! Love the classy feeling and all... and it was so great watching my friends dancing on that big stage!!! Dance concerts I've been to many, but hardly as an audience throughout these years, so everytime I watch a local performance as such, I'll always keep an extra lookout for the familiar faces on stage. I really feel v proud of my friends!! (nana tongwei etc) Being able to dance is probably one of the greatest gifts i received this lifetime!! :)

5th July 2011- END OF BLOCK TEST 2
Nevermind the Chem paper. Time fast forward to 11AM where temporary liberation set us free to KBOX+ Sakae Sushi Tea Time buffet. Seriously LIFE COULDNT GET ANYMORE BETTER THAT DAY. Sang like mad (BUT NEVER ENOUGH!!!!) and ate till our fill too! :)

Yupp, we went for the Klunch package but still went for Sakae after. It felt like we haven't stepped out of our caves for one entire century la k HAHA don't have any decent photos to offer, cos we all look very cui, but they're on fb anyways HAHA

7th July 2011- Back to Reality
School again. Thank god we ran Monday's timetable!!!! Monday= earliest day Thursday= latest day YOU GEDDIT? LOLLOL Was bored during break so guess what, I discovered the school computer got.....

WEBCAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHHAHA
School seriously makes us look very cui :(

Okie sch later again gna meet clique for dinner WOOHOO YIPEE YAY^^

My heart's a stereo

2011-07-03T01:22:00.000+08:00

Yay Weekends Yay 5 papers down and 2 more to go (but they're Chem Paper 1 and 2)
& HELLO HELLO JULY!!

2011 is now officially half over.

I already feel like I've finished my exams, even though I know there's so much more (& MORE IMPORTANT) ones to come!!! But I guess this time, I won't do as badly as BT1, which I totally studied nuts for and I guess... Idk.. okay what am I talkin'.. HAHAHA.

Totally lovin' this weekend because I found out next week will only be a 2 day school week :D Monday's an off in lieu of Youth Day, tuesday's paper end at 11 :D WEDNESDAY NO SCH COS BT2 FINISH ALR (i no take bio/phy) then thurs and fri sch! Hmmmmmmmm okay, it's not that hard to sink into reality at times like that :)

Let's see.. what's up recently... I remember falling sick after GP paper, like terrible headache plus flu and sore throat and slight cough and I really felt my world was going to end.... KNOW WHY??? BECAUSE I HAD GEOG AND ECONS PAPER THE NEXT DAY D': I survived though... c'mon say I'm strong. You know it. LOLLOL

Anyway, since it's been frequently asked, here's my take on where's nice to study from my experiences(Bold are the ones where I might be!)
#1. Northpoint Starbucks, Suntec Starbucks, United Square Starbucks
#2. 313's Coffee Bean, AMK Hub's Coffee Bean, TPY HDB Hub Coffee Bean, J8 Coffee Bean, OC Coffee Bean
#3 AMK Library, Yishun Library, Woodlands Library, Jurong Library, National Library
#4 AMK Hub's Mos Burger, Raffles City Mos Burger, J8 Mos Burger
#5 Khoo Teck Puat Hospital (YES, PPL DO STUDY THERE, ALOT IN FACT!!)
#6 Nee Soon South CC
#7 AMK Park Drive Thru Macs, Khatib Macs, Kebun Baru (Near St Nicks) Macs
#8 Raffles City Burger King
#9 Yishun's Wendy's
#10 Home

Actually there's alot more. But well, idk if the places that works for me works for you but... i hope after this i'll still be able to find seats to study at my most frequented studying places :P IMO Libraries and Starbucks works best for me currently!! Anyway as I live in the north, (and it's not that hard to see which area since
it is rlly quite obvious from what I typed above hahaha....) I'm sorry I don't have great lobangs for those staying in the east/west/south!! okay maybe the west got la... Jurong library!

Moving on to non academic stuff!!!!

Was looking thru some facebook albums and then guess what I found....!!!

!!!!!!! :')
This was the top O level scorers' photos during last year's Speech Day... which not everyone is in! For one, I can't find Xiaobai inside!! But I'm really lovin' this photo it made my day really looking at all the happy faces in a place we all call home and more than half of 4/1 is inside ahhhhh I miss everyone :') Good ol' memories.... 1.5years and it's still my home :)

Some things they just can't be replaced, I believe Secondary School years must be the best for majority of us because it's where we watch each other grow up :) And well, I guess I was happy and proud to be wearing the HC blazer then, because that was the school I wanted to go. The feelings definitely reduced by more than half now, but I guess I still should learn to be happy to be where I have wanted to be in...... (:

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Alright, what's next... I decided to take a really nice and long sleep so I slept in today and lazy to go out (and probably too broke to), I stayed home and hit the kitchen!!! I BAKED :) hehe I love baking like it's gotta be one of my favourite hobbies that I wish I could spend more time on.... so I baked Brownies and Cookies! hehe

Only photos of the cookies which looked great and the brownies were below.... didnt take photos of them cos they got slightly burnt :/ HAHAHA ONLY SHOW THE BEST RIGHT!! HAHA. My dad says my baking skills getting better hehheh ^^

Oh yeah anw yesterday after Chem Paper 3 we decided to call for a mini celebration (excuses we always give ourselves to slack) after a long and draining week... so Audrey Rena and I headed over to Marble Slab for some ice cream and we played Monopoly there!

We played for like 3 hours?!?!?! OMG... and we got bored of it cos Rena and I were totally broke with no money left and we mortgaged almost all of our properties and audrey obviously monopolized the whole game -.- HAHAHAHA

Random shot halfway thru the monopoly game. HAHAHAHA

Yeah so back to today, I still haven't started studying. but it's okay. I'm gonna study tmr...!!! And before I blogged, I decided to pack my make up stuff. Got sick of having them packed in 3 make up pouches cos searching for stuff can get very tough....

My make up stash.. it's not all because my brushes were airing after i cleaned them and make up remover wipes (not the face shop one) and loose powder etc all not in... my mum has them cos I don't really go heavy on makeup (see the thick falsies? they're for sch performances!! all my falsies are, actually) and in fact, I don't like to put makeup cos I like to let my skin "breathe", I only do it when i go town and events and concerts! Or when I feel like it. :) Anyway see the Silky Duo eyebrow pencil in the photo? Got it for $6.90 at GSS!!!! hahahahaha hope it's good. damn steal.

After packing all of them into my newly bought storage box that is finally big enough to store them all in! ^^

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I can't wait to watch SYF DANCE PRESENTATION Later!!!!! (since it;s 1+AM)
HC Modern Dance is performing, so are some of my friends from shhk ^^ It's a pity that each school can only choose one performing arts to go for it... if not i can perform in Esplanade!!!!! OMG One of my lifetime dreams you know... to be able to dance in esplanade ): But it's okay, I love watching concerts in Esplanade anyways! :D

Shall head to bed and meet Zoe and Lydia for some studying before watching the syf presentation tmr :D heehee. Good night! ^^

I'm like... Damn~

2011-06-25T23:47:00.000+08:00

School's reopening in approx 1 day time and I'm like DAMN~~~

SAD_GIRL_4EVER

Not ready for blocks not ready for prelims not ready for A levels BUT
READY TO GRADUATE~

Bliss

2011-06-24T02:36:00.000+08:00

Finally found out of the super-nice-tea that I first drank at coffeebean! (which i later discovered the real name at starbucks, hence explains the picture)

Love the smell of the flowers (?)

Supposed to be sleeping, I just fell sick today and it's really horrible. It all happened when I was reading Chemistry halfway in Starbucks and I realised the strangers around me are complaining that the aircon in starbucks isn't cold and all but I was wearing my pullover and still sneezing mad. Soon my eyes didnt feel like it could keep itself open so I came home for a sleep. I woke up with slight headache.

My sad and unfruitful studying day is topped off with realising we're 3 days away from school aka Block Test2 aka 2nd last exam in JC life (YESSS). Ohmymother I'm terribly screwed IVE NOT EVEN DONE ONE ROUND OF REVISION I'm really screwed. LOL Okay begin with the end in mind. A levels is the one that matters.

Keep Calm and Carry On ~~ LOL
Was supposed to sleep and i am still trying to fall asleep my head still aches slightly and okay I just CANT SLEEP. Will continue trying to sleep after this. This is bad, sleeping never been such a tough job before.

Good night everybody, enjoy your last 3 days of holidays..... i mean MUGGING.

:)

2011-06-22T01:44:00.001+08:00

Whatever it is,

Seriously, winnie the pooh is too silly and cute HAHAHA ^^
(got this off delightfuldisney/tumblr... they've got a section for winnie the pooh!!!!!)

Keep Calm and Carry On, yes A levels I am not afraid of you~~~~

Im just a little bit caught in the middle

2011-06-21T04:05:00.001+08:00

I really need to stop sleeping at such unearthly hours!

By the way, week 3 was the planned play week!:) So even though i couldnt follow my mugging plan too closely, I followed week3's plan super closely, like I watched 3 movies, sang Kbox, had seoul garden and went flea! Yeap yeap, finally, a post without anything about studying LOL

Here's the 3 movies I caught this week!:

Yay I managed to watch Kungfu Panda 2! Caught the movie with Audrey ^^ Looks like a really kiddy show but there's meaning to it!! plus i watched kungfu panda 1 too so im hoping there'll be kungfu panda 3 HOHO #likeakid

Caught this with R and this is my 1st/2nd M18 movie!!! hahahaha despite being 18 for 4months+ already! What's more fail is, I didn't even realised I actually watched part1 before till it was like 10min into the movie......... LOL Couldn't even recall who I watched it with!!! Seriously....! LOL But i could rmb the movie, and I thought part1 was better than part2 :(

Impromptu decision to catch a movie with J halfway thru mugging LOL but i saw the trailer back then and saw it was quite cute hahahaha I liked it! Penguins are so qt~~ especially the blur blur one LOL!

Yeap that was the 3 movies I watched, LOL I haven't watched so many movies at a go in a really long timeeeeeeeeee. I think Kung Fu Panda will become the movie that I will watch every single part, like Step Up :) & I CANNOT WAIT FOR WINNIE THE POOH MOVIE TO COME OUT IN AUGUST!!!!! I keep seeing the trailer everywhere!!!! I am really young at heart despite being 18 :-S

Just ytd afternoon, I was studying at the library and this baby girl who just learnt to speak suddenly came up to me( like crawl/running kind) and asked me to read her a storybook!!!!!! HAHAHAHA SO CUTE PLS!!!! ^^ ^^ And guess what, 'cos she just learnt to speak, she could only say "mama" so she called me her mama HAHAHAHA!!! She also called the elephant in the book mama, her own dad papa and stuff... damn funny lah but she's rlly cute, she even gave me a goodbye kiss when she left!:):)

So, Seoul Garden the other day with B!

& Kbox/flea with PS:)

Was thus a fulfilling week spent with all the people I love :) and i also found a remedy for my super duper dry hair!!!!!!!! Was seriously gonna cry looking at my bad hair condition and stuff but no more!! my hair is getting better thanks to....

Skin Food's Moisture Egg Hair Pack!!!!!!

It's really goodddddd, my hair no longer has the frizzy look and it's so much smoother to comb now. smells really great too! To those who have dry/damaged hair, I recommend you all this!!! Don't say I never share okay :):) heheeee how much is it, idk. Because I was really upset washing my hair one day and i just looked thru all the products in the bathroom, and found out my sister bought this so I decided to try... ^^

And sorry to all those who asked for a stage makeup tutorial but I haven't done it, the stage makeup are all mostly in school (eyeshadow!) and I haven't been to sch for the entire holidays (and loving the fact) soooo pls bear awhile more ok!

I'm in a really good mood today so.... a picture of me despite looking super cui and super heavy eyebags after a tiring day of mugging for 8hours:

Okay it's 4AM I am going to sleep. GOOD NIGHT!!!:)

I'm really bored.

2011-06-18T02:05:00.000+08:00

Here's smth. Too lazy to post up the tumblr image thingyz so shall cnp and do the quizzzzzzzz.

the person i like and why i like them. My friends. Cos they they they always there for meeeee~
a famous person i’ve been compared to. Haha some actress from some taiwan drama, but idk her name D:
5 things that irritate me about the same sex/opposite sex. 1) Going back on their words 2) Acting like they know you really well 3) Not replying text messages 4) Not knowing where's their limits 5) Getting close to you, then they judge you.
the best thing that has happened to me this wee. Watching 2 movies hehehe
weird things i do when i’m alone. Think, too much.
how i’d spend ten thousand bucks. Save half, spend the other half on shopping, vacation w family, throw a party for a friends gathering~~
things i like and things i don’t like about the way i look. I'm okay w my face lol
my last night out in detail. Caught Hangover2 with Russel, dinner after and went home, watched some drama, and some drama happened to my own life -.-
something that makes me sad when i think about it. Death
something i’ve lied about. It's a secret :)
would i rather be stranded on a desert island with someone i love for ten years or someone i hate for a month? explain why. Someone I hate for a month, because we might become friends after that :) Hatred is not good haha.
something i’m currently worrying about. OMG. IT HAS TO BE HOW TO FINISH STUDYING?!?!?!!
one person from tumblr i’d throw off a cliff, one i’d marry and one i’d fuck. Errrrrrrrr, no one?!
something i do without realising. Bite my nails :S:S:S
lyrics that apply to my current situation/mood. Perfect by Hedley
a drunken story. Nvr got drunk before. ^^
something i regret. Made a wrong decision during JAE. :-/
to do list. STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STOP PROCRASTINATING :-S
post a picture of myself.
my longest relationship and who it was with. Those who know me should know :-)
5 things i want to change. Nothing really much, must learn to love the life I have!
someone i’d like to be for a day and why. You, so i can read your mind~
5 things within touching distance. Phone, sharetea^^ , Fan controller, Towel, hairband
story of my first kiss. Like a joke.
an embarrassing/socially awkward situation i’ve found myself in. When I meet someone who added me on FB and I don't know know them ^.-
something i’m not proud of. My lousy determination this year zz
the last argument i had. Over some... affairs of the heart.

Hmmm okay I'm done.
I'll attempt to read econs now. I will I will ARGHHHHH I CAN DO THIS!!!!!!
Time is running out. I don't want to end up meeting the HOD/Dean or whoever in the school that sits in the office the whole day anymore. -.-

Not good at all

2011-06-17T05:13:00.000+08:00

One of the lousy nights of the lousiest week in june i had thus far.

I don't know what to do, how to react or whatsoever. Broken, dejected and disappointed. Trying to absorb everything in. I realise I'll never be good enough... never. I'm afraid to sleep every night because everytime my world blanks out, there'll be this stabbing pain and all the horrible feeling that creeps up to my soul in my sleep. And the tears start to flow. Why am I so weak why am I so pathetic. I just need to get over it get over myself get over my own feelings. Get over the fact that I'm not worth the while, and I'm just not deserving enough.

Pls dont judge me from this post thnx.

Racing against time

2011-06-12T04:35:00.001+08:00

I haven't been sticking too closely to my studying schedule because I'm spending too much time completing one task than I initially thought I would! It's horrible because there is sooooo much more to do and I have solemnly pledged to myself that if I can't stick to my plan and get my revision done, I WON'T GO OUT. (I'm really broke and owe lots of friends money... my debts add up to like $120 ok!!) Totally think that this entire holidays I'll just be spending it at starbucks/libraries and be a no-life kid mugging. Why are the contents so hard to digest and everything just seem neverending D:

Studying aside, I don't really know what my life has been about. It probably goes to show : 1) IM REALLY A STUDYING MACHINE 2) I'm just lousy at juggling between work and fun. I guess I'm lousy ): I really can't stay home I'll just get glued to my lappy ARGHHHH. Anyway I'll be getting braces soon!!! Going for my first consultation next week hopefully... Straight nice teeth here I come :-D

Thing is once I come home, I spend all the time in front of my laptop till unearthly hours like NOW. Blogsurfing, twittering, formspring, tumblring, online window shopping, youtub-ing~ EVERYTHING BUT STUDYING. My self discipline still kinda sucks :-S & sometimes when I'm too tired I'll just fall asleep right in front of my lappy because I use it on the bed LOL it's so comfy cos this is how I use it :

Hugging Winnie the Pooh & my bolster and pillow~ ALL THINGS CUDDLY~ Only thing is my back really hurts after awhile hahahaha oh yeah thats the "hair velcro" I'm using on my head, haha you'll never see me with a fringe at home I'm just too laid back to bother about being vain LOL

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But every late night has also set me thinking alot about the things that are happening in my life. Every event and every day seem to have taught me something new, despite me just studying (and of course the things i learnt are not academic related la!!) Hahaha I don't know, I think I have reached a point where I just wanna swallow everything down and keep it to myself, because nobody will really understand it as much as ourselves do. I hope this isn't communication failing itself, but probably just everyone needing some space for themselves to breathe, think and reflect.

I'm not sure if whatever that I'm doing right now will be worth it, I can't be sure of what the future lies for me, but the fear of the unwanted happening just haunts me down every single time and it really makes me lose my sanity. It's horrible. It's like losing control of yourself when it shldn't be. Every attempt to try to be someone better has been futile... I'm really amazed that despite the countless times that have torn me apart, I could still hold on to smth so tightly... perhaps it really means alot to me. I guess so.

And thinking about the future.. I don't really know what I want to be, I can barely expect myself in about 2 years time. What if I screw up A's and can't get into the course I want. What if I enrol into a place I gonna regret AGAIN. What if I am still aimless... and recently all my injuries (sprained ankle, swollen knees and my really bad back) made me wonder and ponder really long over what I will actually do if I can't dance anymore. The possibility of things happening is limitless, and nothing is impossible. Maybe I was just being paranoid, but I was just preparing myself for the worst times. And the reason why I'd think of what if i actl can't dance anymore is because it's been weeks and my ankle still has this strain and my knee makes funny sounds now, it makes me really scared. I think I'll go for an xray next week :-S I don't know if I'm just too emotional or what, but everytime when I think of my parents aging as the years passed by, I feel more afraid. Sometimes just picturing them having to me leave me forever makes me cry. But this fear also makes me treasure the current times more.

At 18 years of age, thoughts of life and death keep flashing through my mind. I have just stepped into semi-adulthood, old enough to do things without parental consental but it also mean the day I can no longer rely on my parents is approaching, one day it will hit me in the face. One day, reality will hit me hard that my sister will also have her own family, and so will I. One day my friends will become my acquaintances and my acquaintances will become strangers. People will be constantly walking in and out of my life, right in front of my eyes and I'll be there wondering who'll be there to just linger for a while longer. Right now our only problems are doing well in school and A levels, but after this November life will take on a different scene. Everything will be different.

I don't know why am I typing all these. It just come out like water tap once I start typing. And today's Father's Day.

I just want to wish my dad a happy father's day, even though he'll never read this. Thank you for working all your life to give me the life I'm living today, thank you for giving me a comfortable life without having to worry about my 3 meals. Even though our relationship isn't as strong as me and mummy, but the hardship you've gone through just to give us this comfortable shelter over our heads and always sending me to sch in the morning, I have never taken them for granted. You've sometimes complained that you wish you were richer so we could get whatever we want, but to me it doesn't matter if we're rich, what car we drive, what kind of house we stay, what clothes we wear. I'm contented and happy with this life. Without you there wouldn't be me, please stay healthy always and ily. :)

Everyone, please treasure the people and things around you even if it's the small things. You'll never know when you look back next time, these may actually be the things that matter the most.

PS: (edited at 2:33PM) HAHA OMG Someone just told me fathers day is not today and i went to google its rlly next sunday. MY FATHER SCAMMED ME IT'S TODAY :( OMG. HAHA. but its okay, we dont need to wait for fathers day to express luv for dads ^^

It's 4:23AM now and I'm gonna head to bed. It's a really long chunk I've written above haven't blogged so nakedly for a long time. Good night all :)

Perfect

2011-06-09T02:36:00.000+08:00

Currently my favourite:

I can so feel this piece:) really awesome i love it!!

Falling a thousand feet per second, you still take me by surprise
I just know we can't be over, I can see it in your eyes
Making every kind of silence, takes a lot to realize
It's worse to finish than to start all over and never let it lie
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won't fall, even if you said I was wrong

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my personality?

Making every kind of silence, it takes a lot to realize
It's worse to finish than to start all over and never let it lie
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won't fall, even if you said I wrong

I know that I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start

I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my personality?

When you're caught in a lie and you've got nothing to hide
When you've got nowhere to run and you've got nothing inside
It tears right through me, you thought that you knew me
You thought that you knew

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my personality?

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my, just myself
Just myself, myself, just myself

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying

I don't really have much to blog... I've been a studying machine just mugging eating mugging sleeping mugging eating mugging sleeping repeat cycle x100000.
I hope i can finish studying most of the stuff by this weekend :( Seems impossible :(
OK GOODNIGHT ^^

Good things are meant for sharing~

2011-06-06T02:41:00.000+08:00

Just came back from studying at starbucks not long ago... didn't really stick to my plan ytd cos i was too busy sleeping at home, PIG TTM :(

But anyway my point of blogging today is to share our SYF video hehehe :D Ytd I shared our batch dance one, today ZW uploaded both CD & MD SYF videos up!!! :D:D Definitely worth watching, both got Gold with Honours! :D Of course it wasn't the best (best only happens once, and it was the syf day! and we havent gotten our DVD) but i guess this is good enough hehehehe been watching it IM SO HAPPY~~~~~~ Love us :)

I was quite amused by our exagerrated expressions at some parts really, LOL but it was good~ I had goosebumps at many many parts. Never really watched such a high quality video of our dance before. All our practice videos are like non-HD or close up ones.... basically the dance is an adaptation from Dream of the Red Chamber, aka Hong Lou Meng~ Depicting the love story btwn Jia Bao Yu and Lin Daiyu and the lives of the Jinling 12 Chais~

Ok this is our synopsis read it for yourself HAHAHAHA

I don't really know the story behind Modern Dance one but it's about Ma Jie... so here's it, really good too! :

Okay, good night!!! Hope you all like the dances :)
Oh the Modern Dancers will also be performing for the SYF Presentation this year!!!!! Go get your tickets if you wanna watch~ :) I'll be watching ^^

better than me

2011-06-05T04:26:00.000+08:00

Back with more photos:

For those who watched Dance Night, these are the kids who filmed our introductory video for our batch dance! ^^

I love this pic ^^ even though my fake eyelashes were already out of place after too much crying LOL :')

One of our full audi runs ^^

Day 1 Dance Night-- Mac Breakfast!

When we were out filming for dn video~

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Missing HCCD already, it's been one week since dance night!!! I'm so glad I can walk properly now O:

Been mugging religiously these days and ytd went for Yuanming's bday party! It was quite awkward but was really epic hilarious at the part he opened up his present :O LOLLOL Don't really plan to head out this holiday except to study.... This holiday I aim to:

1) Study study study study study and own BT2, Prelims.. A Levels
2) Save money .... :(
3) Not gain weight
4) FOCUS
5) Eat and sleep well
6) STICK TO MY STUDY PLAN
7) Spend more time with family
8) Bake some more stuff~
9) No dancing till all my injuries recover :(

Life's gonna be super monotonous now with ONLY STUDYING as the everyday target... :'( Need to pick everything up and piece everything back~ Must also have lots of self discipline, focus well and not get too distracted. Things seem to be great right now, I just hope it'll stay this way... like everything in good shape and all. :)

Need to drive away all the insecurities too... I can do it ~

Oh wells it's 4:21 AM and i should be sleeping! Anyway, here's our batch dance video from Dance Night, choreographed by our dance ics!!! Will post up our SYF piece if it's gonna get posted. Love HCCD :D

Video makes me feel so glad I chose to do this piece with them, it was worth the compromise with something else. Dancing is life ♥

Our Last Dance

2011-06-01T03:36:00.000+08:00

I just drank coffee and I can't fall asleep... I've been thinking the entire day about whipping up a good post worthy for reading in a long time but it's really so hard to start penning down everything. I've just closed another chapter in my life and idk... I'm feeling so lost about everything. I'm lost about what to do with my injury (my sprained ankle sprained itself AGAIN on stage explains why i was limping and crying during curtain call LOL), I'm lost about the months ahead, months that's gonna be spent without dancing. :-/

I spent my entire day uploading 2 photo albums, tagging 4 photo albums, getting tagged in albums and writing up 2 facebook notes and tagging everyone in them. Maybe I'll just post one of my notes here:

To my dearest HCCD <3
by XinLin Khaw on Tuesday, May 31, 2011 at 1:45pm
(Sorry my english is quite lousy LOL so I'm going to convey my message in a very simple manner lol)

To my batchmates: As we have just overcome the 2nd biggest event for this year, 1st being SYF, the time for farewell is nearing with each single day. Yesterday night was our last dance together, and it was truly the best night of my life despite whatever injury I may have had. It was a different feeling backstage and onstage altogether. Flashbacks of us during all our dance sessions for the past 1 year and 3 months came gushing into my mind when I was onstage. Our SYF piece last night was also our 25th performance together on stage. We've done and achieved so much in 15months, but I know we've learnt alot more during this process, we've all grown together as a family especially this year, during our most crucial period for SYF. Our laughters, sweat, pain, injuries and tears were all worth it eventually. There were days where we dread to start CCA, days we felt like giving up because we were too exhausted. But you know what, we've all made it here, we've overcome every obstacle that we've faced <3 Whatever tough times we may have, they're all over and are only part of our memory now. I hope that when we look back in a few months time the days spent with HCCD will leave a smile on your face because for me, it definitely will. You girls are the best gift that life has granted me in HC, I really can't imagine my remaining months in school have to be spent without you girls :'( Thank you for providing me the best memories in HC, putting on the widest grin on my face, putting up with my bimbotic, clumsy, retarded, ridiculous and all sorts of actions and wiping off those tears on my face. We've probably taken thousands of photos altogether that I just realised 75% of my photos consists of you all ever since 2010. I hope that even in the future, your faces will still continue to appear in my FB photo albums <3 This may be the end of your dancing career, but no matter what, you girls will always be my favourite <3 <3 <3

To the seniors: Thank you for all your guidance when I was in J1. You all are really like the role model for our batch, excelling in everything that you do. Thanks for being such wonderful seniors, always there with gifts during performances (LOL) I wish you all all the best in your uni life and keep dancing! :) <3

To the juniors: Even though I never really had time to communicate well with all of you, and you are a very small batch, but thank you for those times you girls help to organise and things done among yourselves, and helping to prepare the brushes for SYF. It's a long and enjoyable journey ahead, and it's going to be a blast of your lives. Jiayou, the seniors will be there to support you all through all(or at least most) of your performances! <3

This certainly wouldn't be my last stage appearance, I'll never stop dancing. I realise as we grow older, each concert begins to have alot of meaning. But I know given my current situation, I'll take a short break from dance, let whatever injury I have recover and focus on A levels before continuing to dance.

Gotta miss all the times we all spend together. May say this for so many times but it's never enough.. I'm missing them all already :( they are the people I spend like 12 hours with on a Saturday and all the way till 9pm on a school day. Steaming costumes, taking retarded videos, emo-ing, camwhoring, jumpshots, preparing cards for one another, and even the disagreements we may have.

And it's June 2011 now. a step closer to A levels. I'm gonna study like a mad dog everyday, find back my motivation my drive kick away all distractions (argh computer you are a big one) Will have got alot to prove :( But I CAN DO THIS BECAUSE I AM A STRONG GIRL!!!!!!! I WILL CONQUER IT. (:

*gets into my warrior gear*
~FIGHTING!!!!~

My cards for the batchmates :) Most of us wrote each other cards or gave small gifts... love you all a million :)

Jessica the bday girl!

8 years of friendship! (L) I draw my nose bridge super obvious my nose looks fake here HAHAHA

I have mastered the art of drawing stage make up without using eyeliner!!!! All 3 shows i only had eyeliner on my lower lids hehehe

Probably the only time I get to be their boss HAHAHA
Yupp to all you girls saying our bouncers / security guards for DN very hot/cute whatever right... I HIRED THEM HAHAHA juuuust they volunteered I was just in charge :)

I can't recall taking this photo but I just found it interesting hahaha even though my face not flawless even with so much make up!! (actl not alot lah i put minimal base LOL)

Monday night's photos (the last few taken w my friends) just showed that I shouldnt take photo right after a very bad cry HAHAHAHA I cried like crazy as my leg was being "operated" on after the sprain x2 it felt like giving birth.... not that I know the pain though LOL
but thanks all for the concern my leg is much better now thanks bianca jialing and inez and the ppl who stood by me ytd!! *thankyou kiss*

Ok i got school in 5 hours i am so dead hahahah. good night!!!

MIMESIS 2011

2011-05-30T10:57:00.000+08:00

If you thought the bandaged swollen knee in the previous post was bad enough, I fell down the audi stairs in the dark after our Arts Fest concert that day ... AND SPRAINED MY ANKLE. SO I GOT ANOTHER BANDAGE LOLLOLLOL #storyofmylife.

And Dance Night started yesterday and I was still limping when I woke up early in the morning...So terrible right I know.. but luckily all went well and when you're engrossed in dancing, you can't really feel the pain :) So I pulled through 2 shows yesterday! But tonight's the last show and I woke up with a very strained ankle, at least it doesn't look so swollen anymore~ :):)

It's also gonna be the last time our hccd batch gonna dance together~ Time is like passing so freaking fast and everything is ending so soon. I really don't wanna part with my batchmates because they're really one of the biggest part of my HC life :') When I first stepped into such a foreign environment, they were the ones who've been there for me through alot and in fact most of my good and bad times, providied me the listening ear i need as well as all the laughters we've had.

I have been really living in my own world these 2 years and pretty aloof to the things happening around me in school, I don't bother expanding my social circle but just stick to a comfortable few and I've to say without them my life is hc will be the worst nightmare ever :( We spent so much time together training, jumping, splitting, shopping, camwhoring and perfecting our dances that sometimes it actually feels like we're a family living together in the dance studio~ We've had 23 performances together to date and 2 more to come in a span of 1 year and 3 months. My dancing career has been dedicated to HCCD since i came into HC and even though I deproved in flex (cos im always injuring myself zz) but I've improved in techniques, turns and working as a team :) You girls showed me that it doesn't matter which school we all come from because we're all from HCCD :) It's a kind of comfort that I can never achieve or be close to feeling in other parts of my school life and because of them I've found a place where I can comfortably fit in. As tonight will be our last dance together, I hope we'll go all out to enjoy ourselves and hopefully I'll not wear a heavy heart even though goodbyes are always sad.

Thank you girls for the most beautiful experience and memories in HC :)
Give your best,dance it out and break a leg :) (I'm close to breaking mine HAHHA)

gonna catch up on some sleep before waking up and preparing for tonight's show! Will post sooooon :)

~

2011-05-23T20:11:00.000+08:00

SORRY PEOPLE I HAVENT BEEN BLOGGING
DAMN BUSY W DANCE NIGHT --> DAMN TIRED AFTER
WILL BLOG SOON :'(

Meanwhile, here's something:

My poor knee swollen zzzzzzzzz but much better alr~!!

The other day after A div bball ^^ (L)

CHECK OUT PROJECT-ODD NEW COLLECTION #3!! Got new model also! ^^

k thats all, just got up frm a nap finally no cca today gonna bathe and do my work sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh (sorry lazy to insert punctuations LOL)
LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL ANYWAYS^^

190 DAYS TILL A LEVELS OVER HEHEHEHEHAHAHAHAHOHOHOHOHO I CAN GET OUT OF THIS SCHOOL SOON!!!!!! (Y)

Keep Calm & Carry On

2011-05-16T01:07:00.000+08:00

Life's been f-ing crazy. Busy like crap.. So i'll let photos do the talking!!!!! Don't even have time to go fo a fringe cut zz. DANCE NIGHTTTT IN 2 WEEKS.

I swear random boredom does myself harm. LOOK AT MY UNGLAM CAMWHORE SHOTS HAHAHAH

Marshmallow

2011-05-09T02:38:00.000+08:00

True that~ :)

Ntothing really much to blog about it's 2:34AM and I've got CCA at 8AM thank god there's no school today hehe LOTS OF WORK T DO.... Math tutorial Chem tutorial Econs test math test chem test omg fml... Who said that Pain is temporary??? School work = pain but school work is NEVERENDING!!!!!! *face palms*

Okay anyway here's my new favourite snack:

Lemon Marshmallow w Jelly from Muji $1.90 only!!!!!!!!!!!

I need a fringe cut my fringe is totally cui max now I need more sleep too if not no matter how much concealor will not conceal the eyebags and no amount of eyeliner can sustain my original eye size HAHAHAHA

Goodnight ppl!

TGIF

2011-05-07T00:02:00.000+08:00

The week's over and I'm so hella glad :') Been a tiring week... and thank goodness there's polling day tmr meaning Monday is a SCHOOL HOLIDAY. Seriously, May is a great month :-) BECAUSE IT'S ALOT OF 4 DAY SCHOOL WEEK :-* Can never get enough of such deals.

Yupp so there's like lotsa issues and uproaring on the elections thingy right... but I'm not very updated on it. I only know that when there's a rally in my neighbourhood, all the kiasu people come park their cars at my house area carpark then my dad got no place to park his car!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *frustrated* And a journey on the road which took less than 1 min can take 15min lor when there's a rally... :S But woah... the crowd is like amazing ploxxx. Didn't attend any rallies because I hate crowds x.x Can't believe the next elections I'm old enough to vote already!!!! :O Time fliessssss, to my loyal readers do you all still even remember the me in Primary 5 when I just started blogging??? Or Sec1 where I changed my blogskin WEEKLY and blog DAILY with SO MANY photos??? Or just the start of 2010 where I was so excited to get my O levels results?!

Walao I am such a lazy blogger now I'm so guilty!!!
:-/

There's not much photos to load too...as you all can see, ever since I stepped into college, my photos are either all with andersonians or with hccd.. or shhk... this only shows one thing : My class isn't a fanatic of camwhoring............................................. :'( But I think recently I found one... AUDREY HAHAHAHAHA. I downloaded so many photography apps on her itouch and we keep fooling around w it everytime we have free period HAHAHAHA thing is she haven't uploaded them LOL

Actually, I don't even remember any class photo we took that has full attendance except 2. LOL. #pathetic But this is not to say I don't like my class. I like my class, but i don't love it. hahaha get it? But I'm sure if im in another class, I'll probably hate it as much as i hate school. LOL

Today was half day, which still ended at the normal time i end school-.- HCCD then headed over to Coca Sukiyaki Steamboat Restaurant at TAKA for our post-syf celebrations!!! Yay :) We filled the entire bus hehe and ate till our fill :) I think the food there isn't too bad, so if you guys are looking for a fully air conditioned steamboat in town, you guys can try there! :-) It's at 4th level, next to Crystal Jade Palace Restaurant or smth like that... :) The food are fresh and nice except for the prawns... not very fresh! & their house special dumpling is a MUST TRYYYYY. I don't usually eat dumplings but I had soooo much today ;) & their fish paste! & I LOVE THEIR SOTONG I HAD LIKE 6 SERVINGS OF IT :S Bad thing is the only drink they provide is plain water?? :( But for student price it's like $18 (after gst blabla) so I guess it's not bad :) I feel like I'm advertising for them LOL

but my personal all time favourite steamboat place (besides home) will still be the amk one!!! CHEAP & GOOD :)

After lunch, a few of us continued window shopping around till we got so tired and decided to go home... Slept like a pig on my entire train ride back while Teoying was playing with her phone game, LOLLOL. Slacked all the way till now can you believe it... If only I'm sucha pro in studying as I am in slacking away... #iwillbeascholar LOL

There's Athena Fac Outing tmr, I swear this will probably be the only school event I'll attend? Haha need a break so well... you don't see me at school functions & stuff.. THIS INCLUDES CSM thats upcoming im pretty sure.... LOL. Don't know what to wear tmr!!!!:/

Anyway before I end, all of you shld know that my Samsung Jet is probably dying already...! It has served me well since the day I bought it in fact I really like it... but sadly, it's getting old... I've been looking for a nice phone for MONTHS... Still can't find any. So many good phones are all BLACK. and gosh, I hate black phones in all honesty :/ My ideal phone after using a full touchscreen phone will be one with both touchscreen and the qwerty keypad upon sliding the phone !!! (Something like Nokia C6 would do great hehe) but guess what.......

IPHONE 4 IN WHITE HAS STOLE MY ENTIRE HEART AWAY
Despite it not having a Qwerty keypad :(

I really want this sia!!! Don't want to wait for iPhone 5 already saw the preview of how it looks like i think iPhone 4 White nicer x100000!!!! BUT ......... I'M SO DAMN BROKE...

*cries* Gonna go *hint* my parents about it soon!

Ok, goodnight everyone!!! :)

& it was only just a dream

2011-05-02T20:42:00.000+08:00

Mm hello I'm back~ It's been an awesome weekend because it was lonnggggggg and I had 2 great days slacking my life away~ ^^v

Friday after the Meet the Parent session which was -.- as predicted, Mummy brought me out for a nice dinner and some shopping just right after the dean told her to make sure i study #inyourface hehehehehehehe ^^ Hmm yeah and after last week which was so bloody free but so miserable at the same time, I believe life can only get better from here. It's just 1 month more to Dance Night I think I haven't made the wrong choice I hope I won't waver or be fickle anymore go meeeeee. Things will be alright, please have faith in yourselffffff. (sorry just talking to myself here)

& then I'll also study like a dog everyday and pwn the bloody A levels and leave this school forever and live my happily ever after (NOT) LOLLOL. Thinking too far but i can't wait...!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHHAA I've already had a rough plan of my post-A levels life :)

Keeping things short last week was bad, and because I felt so terribly fxxxing bad on Tuesday night I skipped school on Wednesday = missed the HCCD bridge announcement + class photo taking zzzz aiya nvm. I haven't danced for a week only and I'm gaining weight arghhhhhh

Saturday I finally baked after donkey years!!! Yvonne came over and we baked Russel's birthday cake~ Yay so glad that everyone said it was goooddd/not bad~ ^^ Speaking of that I feel like baking some cookies now LOLLOL Ytd was Daddy's bday and we went Crystal Jade Steamboat Xiao Long Bao buffet @ Holland V. My second time there but i guess i dont wanna go back there anymore. Because the first time I ate the next morning I vomitted like a crazy mad woman and ytd my stomach felt weird and was churning all the way till this morning :-SS

The whole of next week gonna be spent w HCCD weeheeeheeee~ CELEBRATIONS ON FRIDAY STEAMBOAT AGAIN HAHA I love steamboat can never get sick of them~ :') Okie I'm off to bathe and errmmmm do my geog LOL

Gotta be lovin' these few weeks cos they're are 4day school week!!!!!! #YESTONOSCHOOL4EVER :-*

Silei concluded that only ppl above 165cm are eligible for the blue costume LOLLOL it was totally coincidental I think!!

~our break diet~ immed after SYF. & WE THE ONES WHO LOVE PEPPERONI PIZZAAAAA ^^